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    --◊ Pandora || Desire || Chambers ◊--
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    ;; ✄--nickname(s) ;;
    Pandora has never really been fond of others declaring her a nickname, she finds it absurd and prefers her real name when being addressed or engaging in conversation. Although her close family members have called her 'Panda' which she has never took close notice to.


    ;; ✄--gender ;;
    Female. She states no rude comments, it only creates trouble for herself and the others in her environment. She's never been a people.pleaser and has been considered an object of ridicule, she only wants to be left alone.


    ;; ✄--age ;;
    Pandora is 16 years of age, having a quite late birthday she is in her junior year of high school now. Its been a tough time for her at school and its causes her to inflict many wounds on her wrists, arms and thighs.


    ;; ✄--birthday ;;
    She was brought into this world on October 15th, 1997. He'd birthday may seem like a big deal to close family members and few friends she has managed to receive, but to her its only a day of misery to remind her how many years of pain she's suffered in twisted society.


    ;; ✄--body modifications ;;
    Pandora has snake bites, I'd you don't know what those are I shall explain. Snake bites are two lip piercings, considerably two hoops or studs. She also has size 8mm gages in both of her ears.


    ;; ✄--hair modifications ;;
    She does dye he'd hair a darker shade than it normally is. Her original hair color is a light shade of chocolate brown, but she finds that it dies not suit her and has settled on dying it black and bright, blood red.(Now I know in all the pictures her hair isn't black and red, but I couldn't find very many pictures of her with that hair.)


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    ;; ✄--likes (nice list) ;;
    -writing
    -drawing
    -poetry
    -listening to music
    -Black Veil Brides
    -Ghost Town
    -Sleeping With Sirens
    -Asking Alexandria
    -nature
    -animals
    -being alone
    -seclusion
    -piercings
    -adventures
    -Hot Topic
    -heat
    -swimming
    -summer days


    ;; ✄--dislikes (nice list) ;;
    -snobs
    -sluts
    -bragging/dislikes
    -jocks
    -popularity
    -stereotypes
    -teasing
    -bullying
    -depression
    -mental disorders caused by other human beings through force
    -relying on others, too much


    ;; ✄--turn on's ;;
    -tender moments in one's arms
    -watching the sunset
    -moonlight kisses
    -simple things
    -heartfelt messages
    -slow paces
    -teamwork/bondage
    -soft smiles
    -twinkling eyes


    ;; ✄--turn off's ;;
    -cheesy jokes
    -store bought cards
    -sluts/players
    -betrayal
    -cheaters
    -cold hearted lies


    ;; ✄--dream first date (describe!) ;;
    Pandora desires simple things and honestly hates it when a man goes full out on decoration and the such just to please her. She would love to have a simple picnic as the sunset sets as she spends a tender moment in her boyfriend's arms.


    ;; ✄--dream way to be asked out ;;
    She really doesn't have a preference, as long as the male doesn't just walk up to her and say 'Hey baby! Let's go out!' She wouldn't even mind if he walked up to her, head down and cheeks red as he stumbled out the words shyly.


    ;; ✄--love interest (not crush yet) ;;
    She hasn't had time to sought out eyes for anybody, anyways she's always teeased and is sure that nobody would dare to crush on her.


    ;; ✄--exes ;;
    Her mother is far too overprotective of her daughter and has kept her away from dating and sexual relationships. So she therefore, has had no ex-boyfriends due to this.


    ;; ✄--sexuality ;;
    She is straight, nothing else and nothing more. Although at one time, she was bicuriosu about both genders.


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    ;; ✄--appearance description (not too long, not too short) ;;
    Pandora has always been told she is the perfect female a man could ever wish for. Her body is full of smooth curves, that make her almost model like, except she is real and not photo shopped. Pandora has large breasts, surprisingly since she has such a small, thin shape to her body. Her and wrists are full of deep scars and writings made through depression and self harm, they also cover her inner thighs, and forearms. She has many insecurities and often wears a lot of makeup to hide any flaws she may have, or thinks she has. I wouldn't count this as part of her personal appearance but I thought it would be helpful to add it in. Once she's never been exposed to dating or sexual relationships, she has in fact, not lost her virginity and still has it with her.


    ;; ✄--personality (take what I gave you and stretch) ;;
    shy
    Pandora is extremely shy and prefers to be alone than surrounding herself with a large group of friends or at a party. She's very timid and hides in the shadows at school, preventing from getting herself into trouble and away from students' wraths. The constant bullying causes her to act like she does today, making her a shy, unsure female in society.


    polite/kind
    Although Pandora is shy it doesn't mean she is completely rude towards others. Even though others have treated her as if she is nothing but a fleck of helpless dust, doesn't exactly mean that she is coldhearted and rude towards everybody surrounding her area.

    Well there isn't much else I can't say about her without giving too much away.
    ;; ✄--your history and past (go as far back as you'd like) ;;
    Pandora's father died in the military a few years before she was born so she was never able to see her father. Her mother raised her under strict supervision. Her mom is usually away on business so she has never been there for her during her moments of deep depression and self harm. Pandora has been abused by her mother as wel, that includes lots of yelling, screaming and violence from her mother.


    ;; ✄--mother's family ;;
    Pandora has never met her mother's side of the family, because of the strong rivalry between her mom and her sisters which caused them to split their own ways.


    ;; ✄--father's family ;;
    After her father's tragic death, her mother vowed to never speak to that side of the family ever again. Mainly due to that and other reasons.


    ;; ✄--family lived with ;;
    She lives with her mother and her mother only. Sadly she isn't allowed to have any pets although she really wants at least one.


    ;; ✄--hometown ;;
    She was born in New York City, but recently moved down to Lagoona Beach, California for permanent positions involving her mother's job and business related trips.


    ;; ✄--talent position (dare devil, photographer, etc.) ;;
    Pandora is an excellent artist and finds writing stories along with her pictures to be a great pastime and hobby for herself to keep her mind free of suicidal thoughts.


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    ;; ✄--dream of the future ;;
    At the moment, Pandora dreams of finding the perfect boy for herself and actually experiencing love at its fullest form.


    ;; ✄--greatest wish ;;
    None


    ;; ✄--vehicle(s) ;;
    Pandora has a black Ford Fusion that she received this year for her 16th birthday.


    ;; ✄--hobbies ;;
    Mentioned in likes.


    ;; ✄--habits ;;
    -self harm
    -overdosing on painkillers
    -cutting


    ;; ✄--disorders ;;
    -anxiety
    -self harm
    -ADD


    ;; ✄--diseases ;;
    She does not obtain any diseases at the moment.


    ;; ✄--room at the resort looks like ;;
    Its hard to explain.....




    ;; ✄--Muse Levels (/10) ;;
    5-6


    ;; ✄--Activity Levels (/10) ;;
    6-7


    ;; ✄--Screen Name ;;
    Hailedabear


    ;; ✄--Nicknames for You ;;
    Leda


    ;; ✄--Other ;;
    Nope


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  • SHANE ANDRE CAVANAUGH!!


    [justify] Appearance: and his lip rings are simply studs at the moment and he has nose ring and hair color like this ---->
    and he has a lot of cuts/scars/bruises/burns and so on on his arms and legs
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    >> Name and Age <<
    Shane Andre Cavanaugh and he's 16 almost 17


    >> Gender <<
    Male obviously


    Why You Do What You Do
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    >> Personality <<
    I'm quiet and shy though I can be loud and obnoxious at times... But who can't? I'm very nice and weird and funny... Some people say I'm cute... Maybe not just some but... Even something small can set me off at times and im just really sad at time... I tend to be really self conscious and even though I'm skinny as sh*t... I think I'm fat... I was honestly diagnosed with anorexia but my sister makes me eat which helps me from dying... Anyways... I'm more into the color black then anything but I'm really nerdy at times and if I work with someone I do the research and everything... Reading is my weakness and I love acting weird and shy and nerdy I love drawing and doing everything mostly... Its who I am (extra and im sorry if i repeated some! He's out-going, goofy, and he's near water a lot just thinking or he's writing or reading. He goes to a forest to just walk around. Hes funny and nice but he can also be defensive. He's weird and really shy sometimes and he can be nerdy... He's really quiet most of the time unless he's with close friends. He acts self conscious a lot even though he's really skinny so he wear's hoodies and long t-shirts a lot and he's always wearing jeans even if its hot out.)


    >> History <<
    History:
    I lived in a drug house and my mom AND dad would always beat me and r*pe me until I couldn't breathe correctly. I started smoking and drinking and I grew up with Shade (His friend that I might add in at times... I probably wont but you never know and their relationship is like brother and sister)... We basically dealt with the same thing except my sister is my age and she knows what happens with me. Her name is Ember but I call her Emby so I can see her smile. Me and Shade were actually best friends growing up since our parents are neighbors and best friends. I'm a very messed up kid and everyone loves pointing it out but I try to ignore even though its so hard sometimes... I try not to smoke and drink... But sometimes when its to much I do... Well the drinking is barely but the smoking is the one thing that keeps me from cutting because it really helps me calm down. But anyways... i get bullied a lot they call me names and they kick me and cause physical pain but I guess I can deal with it... maybe... But I act happy around people so they don't see the real me... the broken me thats barely alive and might end my life anytime soon


    "Personal Stuff"
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    >> What you want to be called if I need to use your name for some reason <<
    Shadey or Dani


    >> Other Stuff about him <<
    So im to lazy to make other slots for all the other stuff about him:
    He loves music with all his heart and his favorite animals are wolves
    His disorders: Well I'm scared of adults... and uhm I stammer sometimes... I have ADHD, ADD, OCD, I have anorexia and I think thats it... Room:
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    Clothing:
    Black and white and blue jeans. With any color V-neck t-shirt or something else


    Pets:
    A puppy named Star: A rottweiller named Keisha and 2 scottish fold kittens: Hunter and Ember [/b] (im an animal person if you cant tell... They make me happy)


    Electronics:
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    IF YOU WANT ANYTHING ELSE JUST ASK AND IF YOU WANT ME TO CHANGE SOMETHING JUST ASK


    (Im also very sorry if things are messed up...)

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  • (Never mind, I have a fabulous idea to start us off with.)


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    --◊ Pandora || Desire || Chambers ◊--
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    [color=black][font=georgia] I sighed as I heaved open the large orange doors of my school, my heart pounding hard in my chest as if it were to break through my rib cage at any moment. My head immediately snapped into it's place, looking down at my Converse All Stars as I made my way, quickly and quietly, to my locker. I hated drawing unneeded attention to myself, I don't want others to be snooping around in my personal business and making a fool out of me, it's better to just keep your mouth how it belongs: shut.


    I grabbed my things, making sure to keep my necklace in a rather tight grip. This necklace was given to me by my father, well that is before he passed away. When my mother found out she was pregnant, my father sent this her way while he was serving in the military, along with it came this precious note, handwritten in fine ink by father.


    Dear Pandora(I hope you mother names you that),


    I realize you are not even born yet, just barely over a one cell organism, but I don't care about that. I know one day you will grow up to be the most beautiful female on this planet, and don't let anybody tell you otherwise. I wish I could be there for your birth but who knows how long I will make it here. I want you to have this necklace, it's a key and a lock to show you that I'll always be locked in your heart and even that key won't separate our love. Daughter, please do well in life, make a difference my love.


    ~Father


    I dearly loved that note and I read it every morning before I head off to school. It reminds me that even though he is so far away and hard to reach that he love me and is still here with me every step of the way. I began to make my way to class until Brooklyn Rivers slammed hard into my side, knocking my into the floor with a hard thump. I winced in pain, feeling a sharp shoot of agony in the left side of my hip slowly spreading over my side like a burning wild fire. I heard Brooklyn's nasally voice cackle above my head, leaving a sharp ring in my ears. "Look everybody, it's the emo cutter. She's so clumsy, it's probably because of all the blood she looses when she cuts herself to sleep. You're so ugly Pandora, I don't know how an emo f*g like you is even alive anymore, that and has the guts to show their face at school."


    I tried to pull myself up, in a desperate attempt to escape her insults and rude remarks, aimed directly at me and loud enough for the whole school to tune into to. I felt her hands press down on my shoulder as she slammed me back to the ground, making me groan out in the sharp pain following that. Wy was she doing this to me and when would it end?

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    Things won’t be bad forever, I promise you. It’s going to be okay.
    Vic Fuentes

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    ic](I cant always type THAT much just saying... I can type a lot just not 3-4 paragraphs sorry)


    I walk to school with my hands shoved in my pockets and I had a slight limp. Just another night of abuse... and sexual abuse to so my down area hurt like hell too, but thats not why I was limping. Stupid parents think they own me... like I'm a slave not their son. I was limping because I think I sprained my ankle or worse. All I knew was it hurt to put pressure on it. I had some bruises on my neck and face but I had my hood over my face so no one could see because I didn't want any attention on me. I had my backpack slung over my right shoulder and my drawing notebook in one hand. I had my phone in my pocket and I had my headphones in my ear as I listened to Black Veil Brides 'Lost it all'... Or thats the song that was on at the moment at least. I got to school and went to my locker depositing everything but my drawing book and and everything I needed for my first two classes.


    I had to take my hood off because I was in the building and I had people staring at me and saying, "aww did the emo boy fall and bruise himself... Or did you do that to yourself?' I glare at them and try walking by when one of the people tripped me and i fell on my already bad ankle.I push the person off and when they tried again I pushed them off and rolled my eyes. "Can't you people just stop?" I ask and keep limping and all I can think is, glad they cant see my arms and legs... then i'd be bullied to the max. I think this because all over my arms and thighs are bruises,cuts,burns, and ex. then I limp to my first period class when I see someone else getting picked on. I walk over and push that Brooklyn girl off of Pandora, well I think thats her name... i don't really pay attention, I tell Brooklyn "Leave her alone." Hell, I didn't know the girl but the I couldn't stand to see people getting hurt like I do because I knew how bad it made someone feel and I hated the feeling. I heard what they were calling her and it made me angry that someone could do this to a person. I glare at Brooklyn and I wait for her to be mean to me because well... Thats how the bullies at this school are and some days I just want to slap them for being so rude... Though i'd rather not bring attention to myself unless I'm helping someone else... Like right now for example.


    (This is longer than i usually right O.O I usually cant think of stuff to say so yeah...)




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    --◊ Pandora || Desire || Chambers ◊--


    [color=black][font=georgia] I opened my squeezed-shut eyes to see a rather tall male yanking Brooklyn off of me. I was utterly shocked to see that somebody was actually standing up to Brooklyn, nobody stands up to her, she has far too much power at school. I watched as she flashed the boy a menacing glare before turning her nose up to the air and strutting her little ass off. I stood up, quickly gathering my belongings into a tight bundle.


    I picked up the stack before entirely standing up, practically face to face with my rescuer. I knew the polite thing to do would be to thank him for his help and that's exactly what I did. At first I was too choked up to even manage three words to the guy, but I eventually got them out. "Thank you for helping me. It was very kind of you." I said, brushing my black and red bangs away from my brown eyes.


    (Its fine, I never usually post that much either. I was surprised that much was produced, I guess I'm a little too into this character ???)

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    Things won’t be bad forever, I promise you. It’s going to be okay.
    Vic Fuentes

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    ooc] 1. Forgot to mention under disorders- he also has a slight anger problem 2. sorry that its different pictures for one character... I mean I can change it to one person if you'd like? I only ask cuz I saw that you used the same person for your images so yeah...



    ic] I glare after Brooklyn as she glares at me and I watch her walk off. "Slutty little bitch," I mutter under my breath staring after the girl. Yeah i could be a hypocrite because I just said something mean about her and she's a bully but, I mean come on, she deserved that considering she acts like a bitch and she acts slutty. She walks around school... No she struts around school just acting like she owns it and everything/everyone in it. I look back at Pandora and smirk slightly and I say, "It was the least thing I can do... I can't stand to see others going through the same as me... Since I know how it feels and it sucks." i say biting my lip slightly and twirling one of my two lip rings with my tongue. I had snakebites and then I had a nose piercing and a piercing on my left ear. My black hair covered my ears though because it went to about right under my chin and I had some blue color on the part of my hair the goes over my forehead. My hair also covered my eyes but they were such a bright blue you could see it through my hair because it didn't cover all my eyes.


    I look at Pandora and I tilt my head slightly and I say, "Your name is Pandora right?" I ask softly. My voice wasn't to deep but not to high pitched either. It was right in the middle but more on the deep side and I always seemed to bite my lip because it was a nervous habit. (I add stuff as I go on and I don't even know why) I look around to see people moving around like usual with some people looking at us and saying, 'Look the emo's of the school are talking!' but I just ignore them and roll my eyes. I looked at Pandora and I slightly tugged on the end of my hoodies sleeves to cover my hand because... well I didn't know... I guess I just don't like showing any skin that I don't have to.


    (This is a better picture to describe him I guess ----> and his lip rings are simply studs at the moment and he has nose ring and hair color like this ----> I just thought of this right now so I'll edit the actual form in a sec)




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    --◊ Pandora || Desire || Chambers ◊--


    [color=black][font=georgia] I flashed him a nervous smile at his comment, how could he have been bullied just as bad as I am? He is, okay please don't think I am a shallow person for saying this, but he's quite attractive and shouldn't be treated like I do. I know for a fact that I am no where near attractive and nothing a man would want. "I find that hard to believe." I said, gently holding out my hand for a gentle shake of greeting. "I'm Pandora by the way, well that is if you didn't know that already?"


    I shifted my books onto my hip, looking down at my strapless black top. I blushed noticing a slight bit of my cleavage and quickly pulled my shirt upwards. Well that was highly embarrassing. I felt awkward just standing here as I waited for him to shake back, hoping he didn't notice me fixing my breast situation only but a few seconds ago.

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  • I watch her for a second and see her flash a nervous smile. I tilt my head slightly biting my lip and I ask, "Why do you doubt that?" The blue parts of my hair fall in my eyes and I see flip it away and look at her before looking down at her hand that she stretched outwards to shake mine. "I'm Shane," I answer shaking her hand and I didn't notice her fix her shirt. How can such a beautiful girl get bullied so bad... I hate how people can't see that everyone is beautiful in their own way... Well most people I should... Except the bullies they could look nice but if they're all cold on the inside then there's nothing warm and beautiful about them. I think and I look up at her. I bite my lip and say, "Which class do you have first? I'll walk you there to make sure your okay." I wasn't just doing it because I could... I was doing this because this is how a gentleman should act.

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    --◊ Pandora || Desire || Chambers ◊--


    [color=black][font=georgia] I smiled happy that he didn't notice my moment of embarrassing boob fixing. I felt his hand grip mine, its warm surface heating up the cold skin on mine almost immediately. I stopped, thinking hard about what my first period actually was. "Um I have Ms. Gillybush, English." I said instantaneously remembering my entire schedule.


    I gave him a polite smile as we began to walk down the hallway to my English classroom. I hugged my school books close to my chest, my drawing/writing journal snuggled the closest. I watching as we walked down the winding hallway bustling with students, just about all of them avoiding us and going around.

  • (I'm sorry! I had my last day of school yesterday then my friend came over and today we went to the beach and I just got home! I'm sorry I didn't respond earlier!)


    I nod slightly and start walking. "I have her to," I answer quietly looking around as the students bustle by ignoring us. Usually some of them would trip me, kick me, or yell at me and I was glad they weren't right now. I hum 'Lost it all' by Black Veil Brides as I walk and when we get there I stop humming and just walk in and straight to my seat in the back corner.


    (sorry its not a lot... lost some of my museeee)

  • (Its fine, I might die tomorrow...just saying. I can't respond right now but I promise I will later.)