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    {OMG! I'm crying! Why did he have to die? :'(}


    Then, it happened. He was gone. By now, I was hurt so much I couldn't cry. Maybe if I stand still it wouldn't be true, and that's all I could do was stand there staring at something that wasn't there. The nurse that told me places a hand on my shoulder and then walks down the hallway with her head down. I have him everything I could possibly give, and now I guess I have nothing to give. He couldn't be replaced, because no one could make me feel the way he did. Tears blur my vision, as they roll his body past me. My heart screamed for one more touch, one more kiss, one more glance. One last time. I watch him get wheeled past me, and I wanted to run after him. To touch him so he would flush with color, but I knew if I did touch him he would be cold. I guess a fire that burns that bright isn't supposed to last long.

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    Doctors POV


    I went stopped pushing him towards the room which his body would be but in a small space. I wanted to give it one last try. I pushed him back into the room the doctors looked up "Anthony he's gone!" I ignored them I knew he wasn't gone I had to keep trying for that poor girl out there. I hooked him up to the machine I took off the sheet connecting wires to his head and putting them on his chest. I went to the machine myself turning it to the highest it could go. I waited 30 seconds for the machine to reach it's full potential. I set it down hard but firm I sat there for what seemed like hours his body moving up and down. I stopped looking at his fast what seemed to be so pale and ghostlike I saw his hand twitch once then twice. I heard a slow beep beep but it was very faint I smiled my eyes shinning it worked.

    Maybe if I closed my eyes, the pain of him being gone would fade. It would all seem like a nightmare that I'm dying to wake up from. I slide down the wall, drawing my knees to my chest and burying my face into my hands. I couldn't accept it, I might never accept that the love of my life is gone. Now, I have nothing to hope for. No one to grow old with, to dance under the stars with. All the things I wanted to do, all seemed so distant. All seemed like a fantasy now, because he was gone.

    I opened my eyes slowly. I tried to sit up but the doctor pushed me down. "Easy there... Um I'll go get you lady friend.." He said as he walked out of the room. Everything hurt my chest the most I looked down my chest was red all over. It felt like it was on fire I felt like I was dying but I couldn't wait to see Nyra.

    When the doctor got me, I figured it was because he wanted me to say my final goodbyes. I don't know why when I'll be talking to a dead body. I slowly stand, wiping my eyes with my palms as I walk to the room. My fingers slide around the doorknob, and I take a moment for what I am about to see will bring me to more tears. I open the door slowly, and then I see him. His eyes, they weren't closed! His skin, it wasn't pale anymore! He was alive! That thought brought me to tears. I cover my mouth as my eyes get cloudy. I couldn't believe it, because I saw his dead body. I saw death. I make my way to the bed and gently touch his cheek. Drawing my hand away from my mouth, I smile,"Your alive!" I whisper. I then wrap my arms around him to embrace him even being here,"Your not dead." I say closing my eyes with a smile across my face.

    I smile as I kiss her cheek. "Yes I'm alive and I'm glad to be.." I said as I leaned back against the pillow. It was hard to breathe but I was glad to be near her and I was glad to be alive

    I look to the doctor, and slowly stand facing him. I smile with a gleam of happiness in my eyes. I say,"Thank you so much for saving his life, I never be able to repay to you," I look back at Danny still amazed at the fact that he was breathing,"You saved my life too." I smile as I stare at Danny. That feeling of loosing him, is something I never want to feel again. Longing for his touch was something I always did, and without him I don't know where I'd be because with him hours felt like seconds. Without him days felt like years, it was just another reminder that I couldn't live without him.

    "Yea thank you Doc.." "The pleasure was all mine... Anything for you son..." With that he walked out. I looked at Nyra. "I hope it's okay that I just Lay here and not talk everything hurts.." I said as I looked up at the ceiling.

    I nod, planting a kiss on his forehead. I take a piece of paper,"You don't have to talk. I will. Just ask anything, but write it." I smile siting in the chair beside him. I take his hand running my thumb along it,"I thought you were gone Danny, for a second you were. I don't ever wasn't to loose you like that again." I press my forehead to his and fit my mouth to his. That pain that I had before was long gone, he filled that gap. It felt good to kiss him, because a few moments ago I thought I would never be able to do it again.

    I kissed her back then pulled away. I closed my eyes my head was pounding I eyes opened as the Doctor and my sister walked in. I saw Lily she was smiling when she saw me her bright blue eyes sparkling I sat up. Emma walked over to me hugging me as she handed Lily to me. She giggled I smiled she was so precious I wanted one but I knew I couldn't have one. I kissed her forehead she cooed grabbing on to my thumb sucking on it I laughed. "Daniel... You have lost a lot of blood... Your sister is here to give some to you.. Oh and This ointment should be applied to your chest twice a day.. I will tell you the rest in private.. I'll be right back.." I was afriast to find out the rest.

    I stare at Lily, looking at her every feature. Then I knew something, I had always wanted a baby. I knew this now because when I used to walk down the streets I would watch the baby cradles go by. Or when I went to a store, I would always be distracted by all the baby clothes or toys. My mother would tell me to hurry up, or come on! What she never knew as I caught up to her to hold her hand as we crossed that street or bought that thing is that I was in love with the thought of having a child. My own, that had my features and Danny's last name. One that smiled or giggled. As I stared at Lily, something ached inside. Something broke. I also knew that we would never have one to call our own.
    I swallow tears, looking down at Danny's hand that I was still holding. One tear slipped away from my grasp as I think of never being able to hold my own. Or dress my own, or grow old as our children have their own. I close my eyes, that would be a fantasy that would never become a reality.

    I looked up at Nyra "Hey it's okay..." I brought her hand to mine kissing it softly. Lily giggled as she reached go Nyra. Emma looked down at me "Danny could you watch her for a bit?" I nodded as I kept an eye on both Nyra and Lily. "I sorta want to ask the doctor what is exactly wrong with you so I can help get you better and you can watch Lily to.." She said smiling I nodded she walked out of the room. I lifted Lily up I threw her into the air catching her her mouth wide in suprised and her eyes big and sparkling she had some beautiful blue eyes just like Nyra.

    I couldn't help but smile as I watch him throw her up just to catch her again. I say looking down at my hands,"Danny, do you think we will be able to have one to call out own?" I knew the answer was going to be something I didn't want to hear. Something that would have to be brought up. I still found myself wondering why I asked it in the first place, if I already knew that answer. I bite my lip as I slide the engagement ring up and down my finger.

    "Of course.." I said smiling at Lily she giggled. "Never lose hope love." I said as I threw her up into the air catching her again. I brought her close I my chest she looked up at me then Nyra. "Can you say Nyra?" She grunted and I laughed "Ny.." She giggled "Almost there just add the ra." "Nyra." I smiled as I kissed her forehead "Nyra." She said again.

    Suddenly, something bubbled up inside. When she said my name. It was happiness. I smile, covering my mouth. I say,"She said my name! She actually said it." I look at Danny, my eyes sparkling. I lean my head on his shoulder, still finding myself smiling as I think of our kids.

    "Yep she did.." I said "Nyra." She said again then yawned. I leaned back rocking her in my arms her eyes slowly closing. I kissed her forehead her head went back but gently laid her down on the bed moving her arms to lay her on her stomach.

    I slide my hand down to his, moving my fingers between his with a smile. I look up at him. Moving to where I was facing him,"You know, we have both been through hell!" I grin revealing my dimples. I place my free hand on his heart,"You keep that heart beating, and I'll keep breathing." I press my nose to his. As we share breaths for a moment, I close my eyes. Each moment with him, was truly beautiful It was to good to be true. Honestly, I still am trying to figure out what I did to deserve him.

    I smiled as I looked at her I saw her eyes close. I just hoped She was happy with me and she wanted to spend the rest of her days with me. I cleared my throat "Um... Nyra we don't have to have a baby we can always adopt..." I said blushing I was afriad of what her answer would he I know that most people want to go through the birthing experience but I knew Nyra had doubts on wether or not she could have a child I may believe she could have one but maybe she didn't.

    I open my eyes to meet his, bringing my hand to his neck out of a habit. I look down, pulling away shaking my head with a smile. I look back up at him. Taking one good look at him. Handsome. I didn't just love him for his looks or his imperfections. I loved him because he mended my pain. As I thought about that, I wanted our own child to see how he is. To see how amazing he can be. I softly reply taking his hand,"I want us to have our own child. I want for that child to wake up knowing that it can be safe in your arms." I look down at our hands,"I want it to see how madly I'm in love with you." I smile looking up at him. I add,"I want you to know that all the pain I'll go through having that baby, won't be as bad as what I experienced today. I almost lost you." I shake my head,"I almost lost you, Danny."

    I pulled her in for a hug. I didn't what her to feel pain I just wanted her to feel loved and the need to want to be with me and to be close to me. I kissed her forehead "I'm not going anywhere as long as you stay wit me.." I said humming the song stay with me by Sam Smith I quickly stopped I didn't want her to know my hidden talent. But it would soon be revealed at our wedding. "Nyra I love you and nothing will ever change that... It would be a pleasure to have a baby wit you because I want to... I also want to marry you first thing in the morning tomorrow.." I said I was so scared she would say no but I had to think she would say yes to convince myself to keep calm.