Falling Apart --Private(?)--

Fang blinked at her, "Why do you trust me so much? If not then why do you remain by my side?" He looked quizzically at her. Advancing a few steps towards her he said, "I know you believe what the others say. After all, who wouldn't?"

[Going to be gone till, maybe Friday. I will have to reply then, I'm srry]

[Sorry I never got back yesterday. My brother took back his laptop on Father's day, but I was hoping to get my own by Friday but plans changed. I might get it Sunday though. I apologize for the wait. How's the song going so far?]

This made Fang flinch with hesitation, he hadn't been expecting her to be so loyal. His ears fell back and the fur on his neck rose at her seemly naive response, "You'd really go against your whole pack just to remain by some outcast's side?" He began advancing towards her, "And if I was as bad as they say; if I really did worse than you give credit for, even if it put your own life at risk, would you still think the same thing?" Now he was right in front of her, his muzzle not too far from hers as he looked down at her with his two inch height difference.

Fang visibly flinched at this. He'd never thought that she felt that way, well, never felt anyone could feel that way. The whole idea seemed ridiculous or too far fetched to him. He was flabbergasted. By now he hadn't even thought about the bundle slowly being burried under snow, especially when he saw tears rim in Avelyn's eyes. A tightness took over his chest as she turned to leave that made him capable of speech finally. "Avelyn-- wait!" He moved to stand in front of her. His breath came out in pale, misty puffs, "I didn't know..." He took one step toward her but couldn't bring himself to come closer. His hazel eyes were softer than they ever have been. His gaze fell to the snow covered ground, then behind her where the sack was vaguely visible. That caused him to wince, then face Avelyn again. "I'm sorry... About the secrets and not giving you the whole truth."

His jaw was set as he stared at her with hard eyes, "Avelyn, please--" He said, trying to prevent her from leaving. With a shuddered sigh, obvious that he wasn't prepared, nor used to this kind of situation, he said "You are all I've got. If you leave I will have nothing-- I will be nothing. I'll be the worthless scrap that I already know I am." Exhaling he looked around them: nothing but snow dancing softly in the wind and barren silhouettes of trees. His gaze fixed back on her he sighed and said in a softer voice, "I swear to you I mean this. Avelyn, I need you." He let out a slow breath and looked down, "But you deserve better, I know that."

[Is it that bad?]

Fang hesitated but quickly relax to her presense. Looking down at her then at the worn, brown sack his ears flattened with its purpose. He answered with a low voice, "It's kava leaves... They're for sleep." His eyes met hers for a moment before darting away, knowing he couldn't say it to her face. "For the alphas..." His eyes turned cold as they looked at nothing in particular. "I was going to drug them."

[The thread or external influences]

Fang looked up at the sky in some annoyance at himself, but he knew she would find out sooner or later. His eyes meeting hers he explained, "Well I already know this pack is crumbling. Raven's parents are a weakening rule and famine is increasing. The whole thing is bound to fail at some point, and they have no one but to blame themselves." He said without a bit of remorse. "Not only that, but the other pack made a better deal. They have more promise of success. All they want is to take over this pack. The other reason is rather obvious... They already saw the potential I hold and accept it. Unlike this ungrateful bunch." He said the last part flatly with a bitter taste in his mouth. As to her other question his ear flicked with wonder at her curiosity. Suddenly he felt uncertain to tell her the whole thing.

Fang blinked in surprise, his ears actually falling back in her hysteria. When she ordered him to kill her he narrowed his eyes and barked, "Enough! Stop with this already! I'm not going to kill you. And I will protect you! Nothing, no one is going to hurt you or mess with you." His mane was raised, and not just from the wind. "Avelyn, I understand fine." He snapped shortly. "What you lack in understanding is I don't want you getting into this. It's my business and I won't let it concern your safety." Letting out a breath he let his fur settle as he tried to collect self control. He advanced toward her and said softly, "I am not toying with you, Avelyn, I swear. I would never want to intentionally hurt you."
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[You've just seemed drained lately-- more than usual I guess. But I understand]

Fang took a few steps back as if her words caused physical inflictions. "Avelyn!" But he knew he blew it. The damage was done and now he was completely alone. At least she was going to be gone from what was soon to occur. He never wanted her to see him as a killer but tonight he will be. But he couldn't dismiss the hurt in him. She was all he had and now he lost her. Ears falling back he backed up as she left to get to the herbs.

As soon as Avelyn was alone, a light ash grey male appeared from a barren tree. His brown eyes were calm, almost dream-like but he held the scent of the opposing clan. "Who are you?" He could smell the enemy clan on her and felt alarms ring in him. She had been caught talking to Fang about the plan, which was an instant threat to their preperations. "You need to come with me." His voice was sleepy and casual, but he had a threatening aura around him.

Ash stood in her way, his head low as was his mundane tone, "How sweet. But I can't let you simply go off on your own. Please make it easy on both of us and just come along. Or I'll have to drag you there." The last sentence was the first growl he gave. "If you're leaving I'm sure Fang won't mind the small detour." Ash advanced to her, his nape rising. "Tonight is too important."

Fang headed towards the pack with a new kind of gloom over him. He was hurt, guilty, and pissed. Any who would encounter him would end up violent. When he approached the alpha den with a strip of meat, he was stopped by guards. "What is that?" One of them spat.
He was silent for a moment but actually managed to give a smile to them, it was almost chilling at how sweet it seemed. "Luna wanted me to give this to the alphas to help their sleep. Apparently they've been having trouble with it, and alphas need all their strength." The guards seemed unconvinced but they believed that Luna would send a more youthful wolf for her deliveries.

Ash narrowed his eyes and took a step towards her, "I won't ask again. You are coming with me." He was oblivious to her plans; all he knew was that she needed to be silenced for good. The lazy wolf's impatience was becoming slim. His lip slowly curled to reveal canines and his pelt rippled with each advancing step.

The guards let out a snarl and snatched the herbed meat. The smell alone was tempting. "I will test this out." As the larger guard took a nip of the flesh, the other glared at Fang who stood there patiently. After the meat was tasted they let him through: it would take a moment for it to kick in. Fang was instanly greeted by Raven who glanced suspiciously at this conspicuous occasion. Fang being there alone was odd enough, but baring food...