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name.
Shayne West
nickname.
spark
birthday.
october 21st 1995
gender.
female
sexuality.
bi-curious
theme-song.
field of innocence - evanescence
appearance.
not the shiniest apple on the tree shayne is an average height, she had long dirty blonde hair that usually cascades down her shoulders in waves. her eyes are a gentle green and always hold a glint of curiosity, her head is almost tipped to the side as if inquiring something, she has permanent bruising on her wrist from tightened cuffs.
personality.
temperamental and confused Shayne is a rose barbed with thorns, constantly closing herself in the woman refrains from human contact unsure of how to be 'normal.' a cloud of paranoia lingers over her head and she tends to recede into her raging mind, over the years the woman became split in three. she holds a clam demeanor and naturally seems a beautiful spirit with her bright blonde hair and inviting green eyes though behind that mask is a whole other woman, fragile mind crowded with devious thoughts her own malicious demon continually influences her thoughts. the beast inside is compelling and she yearns to release it though in it's shadow is her third and final personality, the mentality of a small girl still lingers within broken walls. naive and unsure of how life truly works shayne is always playing catch up, she lacks knowledge of the year she lives in causing her to seem rude when commenting or continuing a conversation. knowing how immature she is compared to other people shayne tries to make herself seem older than she truly is making her look snooty and unsure of what's going on in the situation. she has violent outburst and tends to always look withdrawn from the world around her, in this state it's best just to leave her alone.
illness.
dissociation-a separation from reality that may involve a variety of behaviors including the development of alternate identities and amnesia.
PTSD
intermittent explosive disorder-An impulse-control disorder characterized by episodes of excessive aggression or violence without any significant provocation. The episodes often start and end very suddenly but may last for hours, when episodes end the person is usually remorseful and secludes themselves.
case file.
before her admission to st. benetts, shayne underwent interrogation, they asked the reasoning for murdering her father and she of course told them the truth. years of sexual abuse and negligence from her mother,the lies and lack of diversity of people it was enough to drive anybody insane. though she pleaded with them to understand, they believed it was consensual, that over the years she grew attracted to her father and maybe he had an affair and she cracked. there was no evidence to prove such a motive but of course the police knew what happened, the psychologist , the judge, they lived in that house with that man for seventeen years, they walked in her steps and lived her life. they knew more than she ever would because, why listen to the victim when you can make her the criminal.
history.
from a young age Shayne had been home schooled, her mother mastered in teaching and took it upon herself to educate her daughter. when shayne turned seven her mother was offered a job in europe, though reluctant to leave her family the woman took the job. she visited on holidays, and sometimes birthdays. though in the woman's absence her father had taken an uncanny liking to young shayne, they spent most of their time together and when he began to touch she didn't question. he had always said they're love was was brighter than any other, that her mother wouldn't understand, that she would be hated if their secret was told and if she loved him she would keep their secret. so she did, and as the girl grew so did their 'love' she remained home-schooled, a tutor hired for her education, a nanny to keep watch. she never truly left home her father fulfilling all needs,limitations on cable and internet prevented her from understanding right from wrong. the man became her best friend and she his naive lover, it wasn't until the age of fifteen when shayne became suspicious her mother had began to stop visiting as often , and the many adventures on her ranch house came to an abrupt stop. it wasn't enough to satisfy her imagination any longer and she yearned for something real, to venture out, it became a ritual as her father worked and nanny slept she would sneak out and walk into town. it was then when she noticed girls with men seemingly their age, they had phones and friends, she didn't see older men hovering over shoulders or floating their hands under shirts. things that she endured everyday wasn't happening in this scene, puzzled by the world outside her home the young teen started to question her father about their relationship, he explained to her that the love they were involved with happened in private matters, that people wouldn't understand they're love and would be looked down upon and she must stay in the house for protection.

having no reason not to believe him she listened to his words comforming to the new set of rules that came with her nighttime escapes, no computer, no t.v no outside access beyond the yard. as the months past and the rules continually enforced her father began to become violent, without a mother to protect her and a nanny who couldn't give a less of a sh-t what went on as long as long as there was a paycheck the woman found herself growing even more alone than before. resistance earned her 'timeout', days among days in the emptied barn kept in the very back of the yard, days chained to a wall without food or water. her mother had been gone too long, she had grown to fast and it seemed her father snapped. she understood her cruel punishments, all those nights of trying to get away but not knowing where to go, no money and no sense of life style kept her father on her trail , she began resisting finding herself scared of the man who raised her. though terrified and reluctant to the punishments ahead the woman would continue to sneak out sliding through the newly installed barbed wire fence, and with her time she would sit at the library and read. for months she checked out books that related to the relationship between her and her father, enough research led her to the word incest and for there it had been easy to put two and two together. she never said anything about it, not even a hint just continued her daily routine unable to completely register the life she'd been living, it was the day of her seventeenth birthday that her father revealed his plan, he'd divorce his wife on her eighteenth birthday, they'd run away together and live their own lives. they'd have kids and raise a perfect family, she'd be a better mother and wife than her own mother was. it was the last straw in the dwindling hay stack, it drove her off the wall it wasn't until the woman was outside the building that she realized what had been done, that she was a[i] murderer. she didn't resist being arrested, she didn't lie when they asked her if she killed her father, under the circumstances of assault they assigned her to st. bennett reform school where she is soon to learn it's just another form of hell. [/i]
family.
ashely marianne west
austin west-deceased
infatuation.
will take interest in danielle grey
friends.
open
faceclaim.
amber heard
username.
illustrious monster
activity.
idk/10
muse.
everywhere
i'm confused
idk
shhh
other.
*rubs your face* *whispers*
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