if i die young {PANEM DIES?!}

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    [align=center][size=1]Sobbing, the young wolf walked up the highest hill she could find. Tears blurred her vision and wettened her paws, as if it wasn't hard to get up on that pile of hot sand. When she finally got there, Panny looked for the best spot to jump off. And then she found it- the perfect place- it was right above a large rock that had a very sharp edge that was pointing upwards. How great. Chances were, if she jumped off, her dead would be almost instant. Panem knew she deserved much, much worse than death for betraying everyone, but she could only hurt herself so much.


    "BloodClan, I'm sorry I betrayed you. Daddy, I'm sorry I didn't save you. Momma, I'm sorry I didn't comfort you enough. Sister..." she paused, closing her eyes in very strong emotional pain, "I'm sorry I," a sob interrupted her, "I'm sorry I failed you." And with that, the pup jumped off.


    If I die young,
    bury me in satin,
    lay me down on a
    bed of roses,
    sink me in the river
    at dawn,
    send me away
    with the words
    of a love song.


    Oh, how wrong she was. Her death was anything but quick, but it was also not painful at all. The rock has hit her in the head so good that it cut off her nerves, therefore she couldn't feel any physical pain. But oh, how much it hurt mentally, realizing that she didn't and won't get to say goodbye. Ever. Or maybe she could? The wolf still had just the slightest bit of life in her.

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    -Canadiankit Borigin-Harbringer-Rose
    -Two Moons
    -Bloodclan
    -Medium
    -Multiple Possessions [abbr=Belgian Malinois, Cougar <Main>, Kit]Scroll Over[/abbr]
    -Ability to Absorb Souls 0/9
    -Molecule & Soundwave Manip
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    -No for major injuries
    -Attack in italics

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    Walking past in her cougar body, Canada saw a black spec jump, landing with a thud on a rock. What the fuck was that? The breeze seemed to answer her as she caught whiff of such a familiar scent, instantly she felt sick, as if she'd lose her lunch any second. Panem had jumped, it was that simple. Flashes of her father's dead body filled her mind, cackling and giggling insanely. A scream erupted from Canada's lips, paws carrying her to her sister's body. "PANEM!!!" Once again screaming, Canada heard a strange choking sound come from somewhere, little did she know it was her body dealing with the sudden stress. Collapsing next to her sister, the kit was sent into a hysterical crying fit, eyes blurry with tears.


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    [size=1]"Hey, sis," she choked out, fighting to keep her voice steady. "You know how much this damn fat canine body sucked?" Panem joked lamely, tears filling her eyes. She coughed up some blood. "Look, I- I guess I don't have too much time left, so..." she paused, "sorry for betraying you. Sorry for failing you. Sorry for being everything but what you needed when you were down." Panny sniffled. "I might be a cute rabbit when I come back," she whispered with a very, very weak laugh and closed her eyes. "If I come back."

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    -Canadiankit Borigin-Harbringer-Rose
    -Two Moons
    -Bloodclan
    -Medium
    -Multiple Possessions [abbr=Belgian Malinois, Cougar <Main>, Kit]Scroll Over[/abbr]
    -Ability to Absorb Souls 0/9
    -Molecule & Soundwave Manip
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    -No for major injuries
    -Attack in italics

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    The whites of her eyes were showing as Canada watched the life drain out of her sister. She said nothing, she couldn't, she only shook her head so quickly, it felt as if it would fly off her neck. No, you're joking, come back! Canada felt numb, mind reeling to deal with such a sudden amount of stress. "Ho-I-w-.." The cougaress choked out, tears clogging her green orbs.


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    [justify][size=1]Panem opened her eyes again, just to see tears in her sister's eyes. Her beautiful sister. Oh, how she would miss her. No, no, she wouldn't. She would come back. Just in a different body, under a different name. As if she had never sinned, never betrayed anyone. She wouldn't come back as a BloodClanner, most probably. Panny would figure out where she truly belonged.


    But you belong with your sister, a voice in her head had said, you can't just leave her. Stupid you, thinking you can just die without any aftermath. Idiot. That's fucking great. You didn't think about this, did you? Right, she couldn't leave her sister. But how could she possibly watched all those innocent animals getting tortured? No, she wouldn't. Panny would protest. She would make a plan. A good one. And she'd make sure not to keep it a secret from her sister.


    "Please, don't cry," she begged weakly, "I-I'll come back, I promise." Panem nodded her head rapidly, trying to blink away her own tears. "Wanna set up a password for when I come back? So you know it's me?" Panny asked.

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    -Canadiankit Borigin-Harbringer-Rose
    -Two Moons
    -Bloodclan
    -Medium
    -Multiple Possessions [abbr=Belgian Malinois, Cougar <Main>, Kit]Scroll Over[/abbr]
    -Ability to Absorb Souls 0/9
    -Molecule & Soundwave Manip
    -Ok for capture
    -No for major injuries
    -Attack in italics

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    Silently, still crying, Canada nodded, green optics raining tears. "Mmmmhdhsds." She choked out, claws unsheathing and tearing the sand up.
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    [justify][size=1]"Sinsajo. I'm gonna be called Sinsajo when I come back," Panem blurted out quickly. She felt her time coming, her heart slowly stopping, the rusty scent of blood filling her nose. "I'll come back soon and cause all kinds of trouble," she promised. "So, um, see you later, alligator!" Panny said in the cheeriest way she could, which still sounded pretty sad. And, with that, the wolf pup died.

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    -Canadiankit Borigin-Harbringer-Rose
    -Two Moons
    -Bloodclan
    -Medium
    -Multiple Possessions [abbr=Belgian Malinois, Cougar <Main>, Kit]Scroll Over[/abbr]
    -Ability to Absorb Souls 0/9
    -Molecule & Soundwave Manip
    -Ok for capture
    -No for major injuries
    -Attack in italics

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    With Panem, went a small piece of her heart, and sanity. Collapsing next to the wolf pup, Canada buried her face into the black fur of her sister, already feeling the heat begin to drain away. The plug was pulled on Panem's life, but still, she promised she'd be back. She promised.


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    Everpaw stood a distance away, quiet and not coming forward. She had lost her sister once; she didn't want to disrupt Canadian's grieving, knowing herself the weight of the crushing pain. She held her tail in a way of salute, biting her lip, averting her eyes from the lifeless canine.

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    Scarlett remained hidden within her thick coat of invisibility, remaining silent and transparent as she stood a few tail lengths away from the mourning Canadiankit and the limp pup. With a shakey soft sigh, the former Guardmaster slowly lowered her head with a slight shake of her head. Although she never really newPamen all too well, the jaguar found it painful to observe another rougemate sobbing over a family member's odd like the cub was currently doing. She wouldn't inturupt with some meaningless blabber. She would give the other female some space and stay quiet.

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    [size=7pt]Fuck, he missed it. If this was a possible traitor's death, then her soul would have definitely fit perfectly well along with the other lost souls that helped heal him in his body. Comes with having a thousand-year-old man in your head. Well, that certainly didn't sound weird.
    "She'll be back, Candy," Ferdinand murmured to his young friend as he approached her from the side, lowering his broad head so that he could draw his rough tongue comfortingly against her cheek in hopes to at least soothe her. Better than saying "Hope you get well soon", like she's sick. She's just heartbroken, death's bad as is already. Knowing the person that died is like eating the perfect doughnut, but somebody slaps it out of your hands. Damn you, fat kid from gym class. "They always do, 'member?"


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    -Canadiankit Borigin-Harbringer-Rose
    -Two Moons
    -Bloodclan
    -Medium
    -Multiple Possessions [abbr=Belgian Malinois, Cougar <Main>, Kit]Scroll Over[/abbr]
    -Ability to Absorb Souls 0/9
    -Molecule & Soundwave Manip
    -Ok for capture
    -No for major injuries
    -Attack in italics

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    Canada took a shaky breath, green eyes clouded with shock and pain, but this wasn't physical pain. No, she wasn't suffering physically, mentally yes, physically nope. "H-how will she come back..? She doesn't have more then one life.." Wracking her brains, all Canada turned up was a massive headache, pulsing from the front of her skull.


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    [size=7pt]"The gods could grant her a chance of redemption," Ferdinand replied with a small rolling of his shoulders in a shrug, blinking his both pale and colorful eyes as he looked back down upon the pup's deceased body. Yeesh, jumping of a cliff and going splat never did fit well with him. Body fluids, brain matter, all of that went everywhere. Obviously was some serious hurt Panem was going through if she decided to go through that kind of death, there was a chance you wouldn't die but never be able to move again. "New body, but same memories. Would that help? Her coming back?"


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    -Canadiankit Borigin-Harbringer-Rose
    -Two Moons
    -Bloodclan
    -Medium
    -Multiple Possessions [abbr=Belgian Malinois, Cougar <Main>, Kit]Scroll Over[/abbr]
    -Ability to Absorb Souls 0/9
    -Molecule & Soundwave Manip
    -Ok for capture
    -No for major injuries
    -Attack in italics

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    "She might not wanna come back.." Canada's voice cracked as she spoke, sending her face into her sister's pelt again. Grief was taking it's toll on her body, a deadly thing if not dealt with. Wasn't life always great?


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    Seeing she had no idea who the fuck Panem was, she could see her daughter was quite torn up about it. So Screamingbanshee crawled right on over there. Great. Yippee. She could almost swear she would claim suicide if this turned out like a total disaster.

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    -Canadiankit Borigin-Harbringer-Rose
    -Two Moons
    -Bloodclan
    -Medium
    -Multiple Possessions [abbr=Belgian Malinois, Cougar <Main>, Kit]Scroll Over[/abbr]
    -Ability to Absorb Souls 0/9
    -Molecule & Soundwave Manip
    -Ok for capture
    -No for major injuries
    -Attack in italics

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    Canada didn't even move when a tail was draped over her, she didn't even speak. Slowly she shook her head, a small, pain filled whine coming from her. "GOD DAMN IT PANEM, I COULD OF HELPED! I COULD OF STOPPED WHATEVER YOU HAD GOTTEN YOURSELF INTO! I'M NOT DEFENSELESS, I COULD OF SAVED YOU!!" Canada screamed into her sister's pelt, body tensing as she did so. She kept muttering things under her breath, but eventually she lost her voice, too tired to try to do anything else.


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