Freedom. The word that makes my heart pound. (Semi advanced friend needed)

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    I know! When I saw the movie, I already knew the sad parts from the book so I started crying before everyone else did and the people in the theater were like "what's wrong with her?" XD Oh and I might write in first person now.


    I flinched when he pulled on my wrists, trying to wriggle free. After a while I sat up, facing Xander. His eyes were filled with tears. The sight of the one I loved in that state tore my heart apart, right after it overflowed with sadness and sympathy. I stroked his cheek, hoping I could comfort him. My mind told me to leave him alone, that he wanted to be alone, but as usual, my heart didn't listen. "We don't have to talk..." I said seductively. I had gotten good at it over the years, having been flirted with millions of times. I then leaned forward and kissed him, his lips were soft.

    [ when I went, there were three guys in the very back who I swear I heard sobbing when Gus died xD ]


    Even after fives years of being apart the taste of her lips was so familiar… it hurt. I jolted backwards at the first sign of her trying to get too close to me with a look something like fear. Sure, I trusted her when we were young—when we were both so vulnerable—but now I see how much she's changed and impossible it would be for her to understand true pain. I hung my head down and clutched my hands into fists over my knees. "Just… get out, Sage…" I murmured, trying and failing to keep my voice steady.


    [ ADGFKHAHFL MY WRITING HAD NEVER FAILED MOOOOORE ;-; I'm sorry! I knew I had to post because I haven't in a while but I HAS NO MUSE WHATSOEVER ;-; ]

    "O-ok..." She said, her eyes filling with tears. She stormed out of the bathroom, slamming the door. Sage grabbed her long black coat and ran out of the dormitory, not even glancing at Chloe, who was still sitting on her bed. At this point, tears were streaming down her cheeks as she ran, ran to who knows where. She kept running until she was exhausted, but even then she still walked. She didn't know where she was, but she didn't care. Eventually, she had found the edge of a forest. She climbed to the top of a tall red wood. Now, she had a view of the village she had gone through, but the orphanage was no where in sight. She sighed and lay down on a thick branch, her coat draped over her thin body to serve as a blanket.

    [ NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NOOOOOOOOOO AHHHHHH… I'm traveling a lot lately so my internet has been faaaaaiiiiiiil… but even so, I wrote up this super long super awesome thing and it's now it's all gone… because my internet fails so badly…
    That being said, I will be VERY inactive to the point I probably won't post for weeks at a time. My apologies, friend xc ]

    [ Finally arrived at our destination!!! ;D Our FINAL DESTINATION.
    Jk wat.
    Ok haiiii xD
    As you can tell, I am super hyper and I have many much time on my hands again to rp happily!! WONDERFUL. ]


    I should've stopped her then… instead of trying to hide away and block out the whole world and suffer all alone again. With shaking hands, I covered my face and let the tears I was holding back finally fall just as the door slammed shut and I listened to Sage hurry out into the hall. Then there was silence. No one else came into the bathroom after she left nor did I hear anyone out there either. Did Chloe leave? With that thought all of the last five years just suddenly crashed down on my harder than ever before.
    "What ever happened to "Everything will be okay, it just tastes time"?!" I whined to no one in particular, quoting all those teachers during the depression/suicide unite in high school and even Chloe once. Slowly, my voice gradually became louder until I was yelling at the top of my lungs and breaking things. "Years of abuse and not a single thing had gone my way! WHAT THE H*LL IS TIME GOING TO FIX?!?!" On the last word, I smashed the closest thing to me straight into the mirror so hard it shattered glass into my fist.
    Seconds later it seemed, I was barreling to car at top speeds and I didn't stop until I was already speeding out of the parking lot towards the only secluded place I could think of: the huge red wood forest right outside of town.

    Sage stared up at the stars giving away to morning light. She only thought about leaving her branch when her stomach grumbled, then she cautiously climbed down. She walked until she found a blackberry bush, where she ate all the berries she could find. When she was full, she stumbled back to her tree, this time climbing to a higher branch. She sat with her long legs hanging off the branch, staring glumly at the ground. The only thing that caught her attention was a car speeding towards her.

    I only began to follow the speed limit when I believed I might actually be far enough away from that h*ll called college, but still I was driving fast. My father still lives in this town and if he catches me... I'll be in h*all a whole lot worse than anything Chloe or Sage or anyone else could create. I was so tense driving through that town, I could hardly even move when I pulled up at the edge of the forest, but at least now I could enjoy the peacefulness of night. Heaving a sigh, I stiffly pulled the keys out of the ignition, climbed out, and started along dirt path heading towards a park in the center of the forest. I couldn't help wondering what Chloe and Sage were doing... probably moving on with their lives to leave me behind, like usual. I snickered to myself and pulled the scarf o was wearing up to cover my nose as well, but even though j was laughing, tears welled up in my eyes again.After everything I've been through... I thought, not realizing I was saying it out loud. "How can she just... turn around and cheat on me with my f*cking best friend?!"

    Sage's eyes widened as she heard a familiar voice. Xander! Her heart beat faster for a moment, but then she calmed herself. Xander was the reason that she was hiding out in this stupid tree. She looked down, barely able to see through the darkness, but she still made out a figure walking on a dirt path. When he was no longer in her sight, she slowly and carefully climbed down from her branch. She tried not to make any noise, but then realized how creepy she would seem like that. Instead, she ran as fast as she could toward him. When she caught up with him, she ran in front of him and stopped. Sage faced him with her arms crossed. "Why are you here?" She asked.

    It peaceful a while, the way it always was out here, until I was scared half out of my bloody mind. Footsteps. Running towards me. I froze right in my tracks, almost too scared to check out what it was it was, but just as I turned my head, it was there. Yep, I nearly screamed! But, I only fell against a tree. "S-Sage?! Jesus... don't scare me like that!" I stammered as I forced my shaking legs to take me a little closer to her. I can't say I wasn't glad—ecstatic even—to see Sage out here with me, but the way she was looking at me didn't really reassure me that she wasn't mad. I heaved a sigh as I just my hands in my pockets and attempted to just walk around her. "There's a park at the end of this trail... It's got a swing set and slide, even this cool castle-like structure. I don't know if you still like tree houses, but it has one of those, too..."

    Sage's eyes lit up when he said treehouse, she hadn't seen one since the orphanage days! "C-could I come with you maybe please?!" She stammered. She then realized she had left her brown contacts in her dorm, her mismatched eyes must be gleaming. She shuffled her feet awkwardly. "I'm sorry... For whatever I did..." She said, unable to meet his eyes.

    I was quiet for a minute as I stared at the darkening path ahead and at first, I was very tempted to decline and send her away immediately. But when I turned towards her to tell her just that, I was suddenly too choked up to say anything at all. She wasn't' wearing her contacts... even with it getting dark, I could tell. Reluctantly, I walked up beside her, lacing our hands together before I started pulling her along with me in the direction I was headed before. "It's nothing you did, Sage.." I murmured as I rubbed the back of my neck with my free hand. "I just... I don't want to go through the same betrayal I went through last night with you." I tightened my grip on her hand and dropped my head so I wouldn,'t have to see how much she must hate me now.

    "Xander," She said, stopping and turning to him him. Tears were welling up in her eyes, not exactly from sadness, but a feeling she couldn't quite describe. "Why would I ever betray you? You were and are my only source of hope. And the short time we were together, I felt you would be the only person ever who would be there for me. I owe you so much... The last thing I would ever do is betray you." She tilted his head so he was looking directly into her multicolored eyes, to show him she really meant it. She gripped his hand tighter, and put her other hand on his shoulder. She embraced him in a tight hug. "Don't ever leave me," She said softly.

    I'm really sorry I haven't posted lately! I've been without internet for a few days now actually :'( but Ella! I got a hotspot!


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    I was frozen in place with my hand laced with hers and my free arm keeping her as close as possible. To say her words didn't mean the absolute world to me was the greatest lie I've ever told… and I've told too many ready. Even the being stabbed in the chest would never compare to the pain I felt just from the lies I told Sage. All because if Chloe and my father… "Sage I…"Gulping down the rock lodged in my throat, my voice cracked in my attempt to speak clearly. I just couldn't live with myself knowing everything I did, but I still struggled to come clean. "I lied to you back then. About not knowing who you were a-and what my father was like. Then I got drunk even though you were around and how I acted when you were trying to help—Sage, I'm so sorry" I took my hand from hers, but cupped her face and pressed my forehead to hers. "I love you and I know I've been an @$$ but I'll love you anyway. And I'll love you to death just to say I'm sorry."

    Sage blushed slightly when he said this. "I-I love you too, Xander." She hugged him as close to her as she could. "But why didn't you tell me the truth about your father?" She looked up at him, her eyes filled with concern, but happiness at the same time. She squeezed his hand tighter.



    I'm sorry for the short post, my muse is drained.

    No worries! Mine's really short too :(


    At first, I didn't worry about telling her. It actually felt good finally getting it off my chest. But reality brought me back to this h*ll and I started shuddering again. "I shouldn't have told you anything at all," I blurted out suddenly in a panic. "Sh*t… after he found out about Chloe—I never wanted to see that again! And now I might at well dig my own grave!!" I had back away from Sage now, actually stumbled, until my back crashed into a tree by the side of the path as I raked my hands through my hair.

    "I'm glad you told me!" She said, hoping she hadn't done anything wrong. She walked toward him. "It's ok," She said, looking into his eyes and he was looking into hers. "Its ok. Everything's alright. We're eighteen, legally adults. Your father can't force you to live with him anymore. You can report him for abuse. Everything will be ok. And no matter what, I'll always do my best for you. For us." She said, and smiled slightly.




    Soooo tiiiiiired... It's only 6 XD

    [font=papyrus](GAAAAH IM REALLY SORRY DX My life was in that sh*tty phase where I hated everyone and everything so I just couldn't post much and then I went to Paris with my parent getting on my for every little thing so it wasn't all that fun… but hey! I'm back and my dad seems to hate me, but no worries! The issues of the outer web are not to transition to the internet xD)


    Xander swallowed the lump forming in the center of his throat as he stared down at her breath taking beauty. No matter what traumatized him in the past, whatever ruined him, he was still in love. That alone terrifies him. Listening to her talk, he could no longer look her in the eyes and instead looked in towards the ground. "I don't want to talk about it anymore, okay? Please?" He pleaded, voice already giving up on him. "Just not tonight."

    "Ok," She said, her voice barely above a whisper. She gripped his hand tight as they walked. She couldnt afford to lose him again, not when she had just found him. The sweet and subtle moonlight of late night or maybe early morning, it was impossible to tell. She rested her head in the crook of his neck and smiled while looking off into the distance. She was truly in love with him, and there was no denying it. It scared her little, but mostly she Was just glad to be by his side once more.