but i'm DESPERATE [open] to CONNECT

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[fancypost borderwidth=0pt; width: 450px;][align=center]_{it was intriguing really and a griping through that had fascinated him for quite some time; why did his brothers and sisters flee their life of solace to live under a roof with countless of others? what about clan life was so tempting enough to cause them to stroll forward without even a glance over there shoulder? was it love? was it something more ravishing that caused a sudden hunger to scratch at the base of their stomachs? but more importantly, would he ever experience it? however this frightened him to the core as he pondered more on this topic, basking in the inviting life of peace and quiet he saw little improvement, if any, to this lifestyle as it disintegrated his dignity as well as his freedom. as soon as a loner sets foot on a clan's territory and swears their allegiance then they are giving up everything they had been raised to be, everything that had once made them an individual would now be wiped clean and instead replaced by a mindless robot that was once a king. indeed a king, a king that could go where he pleased or do what he wanted without a care in the world and who only lived to live for himself. it was the clear choice but things were still rocky instead of the smooth sails he once thought he'd ride because his type were dwindling in numbers, which puzzled him to no end. give up his life? what was it that was so intoxicating?}

_{today he had relished in his chosen path; chased nothing but the wind, hunted wherever he pleased, even set foot on territories he had never dared set foot on. he appeared too be checking off a mental list in his head, a bucket list of some sorts, because it was time for his death. no the snow leopard was not committing suicide or had somehow foresaw his death but by sundown it was time to 'slaughter' that piece of himself he held so dearly because today he was going to experience clan life for five days. it was his little 'experiment' of some sorts that he felt a bitter disdain towards however at this point he was not going to back down from this private challenge. it was set in stone and he was going to do it and complete it he would.}

_{yet this day would not count, this day was simply just to familiarize himself with the land and the cats for his first 'true day' would start tomorrow. he was now prowling through many of skyclan's connecting tunnels and had been for quite some time, enough too cause a dull ache in the back of his head due to his own affairs, as this place was too enclosed and he couldn't even see the comforting sky but rather if he peered upwards there would be nothing but a mixture of grays. gray was everywhere he turned down these winding passageways and although he looked moderately bored on the outside, internally he was ablaze with spiraling emotions that eerily screeched at him to seek his way out of here as soon as possible before he somehow suffocated. it felt like a zoo. a zoo with no bars and just him in it and the male growled at that thought that was mingled with his irritation of his wandering and the headache he was currently dealing with.}

_{rolling back his muscular shoulders vitality shook his head to clear out any congestion issues but once he fully was aware of his surroundings he found he had evidently wandered into skyclan's camp. if he was questioned it would be an easy fix; friends with sober, visiting, he was also a merchant. he figured the feline's would take that into consideration and being the seemingly friendly clan they'd allow him to stay but deep down he willed them not to. his pride wouldn't be hurt as it was not him turning away the offer of living with a clan but the clan themselves.}

_{he felt like he was stepping into hell.
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[fancypost borderwidth=0pt; width: 450px;][align=center]_{his first encounter with one of them just so happened to be a kit, yet after getting his overall intional shock that she was bold enough to question him or even get near him for that matter, as he could probabaly gulp down her tiny frame with ease, the mademoiselle would now be faced with a scrunched up nose as he attempted to process her short sentence. glancing down at his large paws he raised his stance while inquiring,
"was that a sentence?"}

_{it was now he was faced with riverheart and his keen eyesight took control as he stashed away the fact no one seemed to be distressed about him, his size, or for a stranger to wander directly into their camp even if it had been accidental. either they were all very stupid or were used to it, as they indeed already had a big cat stampeding around. he then had fully soaked in the warrior's words and the word that struck out to him the most was friends. this was a odd situation to place such a word as that and he'd defiantly not stay silent about it,
"friend? we're not friends...i just met you. i don't even know your name."}

_{hearing a voice belonging to the deputy vi shot her a thankful glance even if he knew she had no idea how much of a torment it was being stuck in this closed off space. of course it was battling with the disdain towards being escorted anywhere but he'd oblige grudgingly for it seemed the smarter choice. if he refused then well...not a very good experiment would be set in motion.}

_{"i'm here to join. for five days."
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[fancypost borderwidth=0pt; width: 450px;][align=center]_{he had trailed after kinkedbeauty once she took on a tone that sounded along the lines of a mother scolding a child or perhaps someone who had control over him, yet even if this pained him to admit; she was indeed the authority figure. it was still difficult for him to hold back an eye roll but instead he blinked at the she cat during the time his face furrowed.
"why would i want to return?" he grunted with a small cough once he sensed the presence of someone else and immediately his hackles threatened to rise in a hostile manner but he resisted the action.}

_{he met the eyes of shingami, who was apparently a clanner had met in the past yet he did not recognize him because of his new body. determined to not be the first one to look away, vitality continued to stare.
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[fancypost borderwidth=0pt; width: 450px;][align=center]_{again, her words muddled with the mal/ Barinas he tried to distinguish that a; it was unlikely he would stay an b; it prickled his fur that she seemed to grasp knowledge he was unaware of. this caused the larger mammal to shift uncomfortably in his grounded seat as he pondered what it might be and whether or not her words held truth. would he be proven wrong? no. not at all. he had no doubts.}

_{"after? i suppose, like i said...i'll leave."
the snow leopard spoke slowly to kinkedbeauty as if he was speaking to a confused kit and trying to detach a more logical way of putting it and morph into something easier to understand. maybe it was he who had gotten the inquiry wrong, maybe she had meant during. but he'd been specific; he'd stay for five days. that implied that he wasn't staying any longer and therefore would be leaving.}

_{vitality blinked, wishing that so many cats weren't around and that this conversation would end already, then he could slink off and find sober who might be able to explain the dense crowd.}

_{ooc: Hehe, I think he's beyond repair on his socializing skills, but she could try! Still determining whether or not he'll leave and come back or just stay after five days are up.
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[fancypost borderwidth=0pt; width: 450px;][align=center]_{well i wouldn't say hope.
he thought with a deep settled frown as he sharply studied the cub while mentally kicking himself for being the one to break eye contact but no matter. he'd have plenty of time to so that latter but then again perhaps not. ignoring sober and riverheart for now, he soaked in shingami's pointed words and scowled at the ground until he figured he was giving away too much emotion and his face switched back into that boring mild expression.}

_{"if you wish then i will find food and sleep elsewhere. and yes, i do replace prey...after i eat it, i need to get more because it is gone."
wondering how prey played a role in this and now that he was done speaking to onestar's son, it was now time to address the others. his neck fur lowered as he glanced at sober and his eyes became more placid after he had mumbled a quiet hello and that it was indeed him.}

_{he visibly stiffened before turning to riverheart, wincing at his usage of friend multiple times. for people to be friends, they have to bond and get to know each other longer then a few minutes...right? it was illogical for them to be considered friends and he didn't particularly care for the informality that this male was speaking to him with, as if they were...pals. yes pals. that was a good word for it but perhaps it was because recognition was in his eyes once the tom stated his name and there was a certain implication of disdain towards him for a reason only vi knew himself.}

_{"again...we are not friends. we are away tinged, you are getting your words mixed up. and i don't want your trust...i never asked to be trusted, where did you get that from? i simply wish to experience clan life. that is all."
vitality shifted his large paws, once again feeling uncomfortable with the entirety of this situation and he couldn't help but cast another look at sober, as if his actual friend could help somehow until he stubbornly turned away. he didn't need help.}

<sub>ooc: Hehe, maybe (;

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