i'm not crazy, [pafp--bxb--advanced] my reality is just different than yours.

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  • the plot here,is simple.two guys,in a home for teens with mental disorders.your guy is new to the home,my guy not-so-much.the rest of the plot-the spicy stuff,emotional stuff,drama;all that stuff-is up to us.


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    okay,so before you start,just know that this is and advanced role play.meaning post at least two paragraphs per post.please,and thank you.anywho,once you've checked being advanced off your list,just post a picture/gif of your character,his name and age[somewhere in your post],then go ahead and start![my dude's name is Boston Elliot Porter!]


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    [color=black][size=8][font=andale mono]i never asked to be who i am.i didn't want to be in this stupid home.no,it's not a home,it's more like seclusion from your family.my family didn't want to have to put me in here,but my therapist suggested it,and persuaded them with his mind powers to send me here.i swear if i ever have to see that idiotic,stupid moron again,i'll cut his chest and rip out his heart.he's the reason i had to come here.he's the reason i have been here for almost two months now.he's the reason i only see my family on the weekends.he's the reason that i am worse than before.




    i think about...horrific things.i think about tearing others' throats out,to hear them scream in agony as they die.i see things,too.things that not anyone else can see.i see dead people.they hang around all the time.they don't open their eyes,unless they died with their eyes open,and they don't move unless they're swinging from a rope by their neck.i see these things everywhere i go,and it scares me.to say the truth...i'm scared of myself.




    dear only friend,




    i am scared.i wish i could speak to others,but whenever i try nothing comes out of my mouth but rudeness and...horrific things.i don't mean to be like this.it's not my fault,right?right...anyway,why won't you come out and talk to me?why can't you just be a real,human being instead of a stupid journal.my hand hurts from writing in you so much.i have so many blisters that they started bleeding in one of the meetings,and i had to go to the nurse to get my hand wrapped up.they think i do it on purpose,so i don't have to go to the meetings.sometimes i do,and sometimes i just don't care.




    i'm sorry for calling you stupid,because you are most definitely not.you are a smart thing,and at least you listen to me.don't you think it's sad how i can only 'talk' to you?i sure do.i wish i had someone that would really help me,because obviously being here hasn't done anything for me.there's supposed to be a new kid coming in today.i wonder if he's younger than me.i just turned eighteen a week ago.obviously they won't let me out of here,since technically i'm still a teen,and they say i'm not any better.who's fault is that that i am not any better,hmm?yeah,you guessed it,buddy.




    anyway,i have to go downstairs and meet my new roommate.i'll write to you later.




    with love,
    boston





    i closed the journal,a sad expression on my face.i hid it under my pillow,so no one would read what i wrote in there today,yesterday,and all the days i have been in this gosh darn place.i looked down at myself.i was still in my pajamas from last night;gray sweatpants and a plain black v-neck.i shook my head,not even caring.everyone stayed in their pajamas for breakfast,anyway,wanting to be comfy since they had just woken up.i was an early-bird,yet i couldn't ever go to sleep.




    i let a small sigh escape my lips,leaving the pencil where i had sat as i got up.i walked tot eh locked door,putting on a blank expression.better than sad,right?i unlocked the door and pushed it open,leaving it open as i slowly made my way tot he staircase a bit to my left.i walked down the two flights of stairs,slowly,and almost frowned as i got tot he bottom.i wanted to stay in my room,curled in a blanket.i hugged myself,shivering a bit as i tried not to look around.sometimes those...er...dead people would pop up out of nowhere,but thankfully not right at this moment.




    i looked up,a bit relieved not to see any of those horrific 'scenes.'i walked a bit faster to the doors that lead outside,where almost everyone was crowded.they were waiting for the arrival of the new guest.i felt bad for the guy,yet wondered what 'difference' or 'differences' he had.[/fancypost]


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    Jace Thompson
    16
    Yup! :)


    Crazy...one word I hated to even hear. It felt like a knife being plunged through my heart everytime I heard my parents say that word because it was usually focused on me and only me. I still don't know why to this day they have always thought I was crazy just because I spazzed out alot and tried to end my life a few times...okay maybe I'm a little crazy but still...I don't think I should be put in this place.


    My eyes shot open as I heard the loud sound of banging pots and pans and blaring music. I rubbed my eyes as a soft groan escaped my lips and I stretched out my stuff muscles. I moved to the edge of the bed and placed my feet on the carpeted floor. This would be my last time sleeping in this room...my room..I would have to start getting used to having a damn roommate.


    I rose to my feet and grabbed a nearby dark grey hoodie and slipped it on over my head. I cursed under my breathe when I heard my fathers loud voice ringing through the halls. "Get up you lazy arse!" He shouted and banged on my door.


    I huffed and snatched my shoes from my closet and quickly slipped on a pair of socks before putting my converse on. I grabbed my iPhone 5 along with my pair of black headphones and I plugged then in and started playing my favorite songs. I opened the door, my father standing there looking red in the face with annoyance. "Oh hi." I chirped, earning a glare from him.


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    About an hour later my dad and I arrived at the home for mental teenagers. Yeah...my parents thought I had mental problems...oh well. I grabbed my suitcase from the trunk and narrowed my eyes as I followed my father inside and was met with a few of the teens to greet me.



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    [color=black][size=8][font=georgia]i rubbed the back of my neck,a frown plastered on my pale face.i shoved through the crowd of teens,knowing the guy was probably annoyed by them all just standing in his way.that's how i felt,anyway.people were lucky they didn't get cut.i let a sigh escape my lips,gently grabbing his bicep.i didn't say a word,just pulled him through the crowd."moronic brats..."i muttered under my breath.i didn't mean to say it;the words just came right out of my mouth.




    as the crowd finally made its way to the dining hall i stopped.we were right in front of the stairs in which lead up to rooms."i will go-"i stopped myself from saying anymore,looking at my roommate.are you effing kidding me?!this guy cannot be mental.he doesn't look like he is at all.if anything he looks like a stuck up asshole jock.not that i'm stereotypical,it's just most people who look like him are stereotypical jocks.




    i raised an eyebrow at him."you sure you're supposed to be here?"i asked,already knowing the answer.sometimes i was just plain stupid,but i couldn't help myself.without waiting for an answer,i asked another question."want any help with your bags?" it came out ruder than i wanted it to be,but better than being snotty.i reach out a hand,waiting for him to give me a bag of his.i still had my eyebrows furrowed,confused as to why he was even here.




    i ever so impatiently waited,although it'd only been like a second since i asked my last question.i'm not patient at all.i bit my lip for only a second,sliding my teeth along my bottom lip.just a bad habit.something i would never be able to stop;like my 'mental illness.'[/fancypost]


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    I grumbled under my breathe as I felt a hand grab my bicep and pull me through the crowd of teens. I sighed and narrowed my eyes as we finally stopped and I got a better look at the kid. My breathe hitched and I mentally groaned on the inside. "Umm...why would I be here? Actually I'm not sure why I'm here by my parents are." I growled bitterly and looked down. "Sorry.." I mumbled. "I just really don't belong here."


    I stiffened slightly when he asked if I needed any help with my bags. I sighed and handed him on, then swallowed and allowed myself to relax only slightly. I ran my tongue over my bottom lip slowly and watched him closely as I waited for whatever he was going to say or do. Were we gonna stand there like a bunch of idiots? I sure hope not...'cuz I already felt like one by being here in the first place.



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