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    Oh, his mind was on Jacky again, hmm? She actually found that kind of adorable. Of course, if she knew he had another opinion on his deceased fiancee, one that brought a sour mood, she wouldn't really know what she thought about it.


    Anyway.


    Jealous of Lovelypaw? "Who told you?" was Amour sharing information or was it that noticeable? "I don't know. I just get jealous when I see you or her, or both of you together."

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    "You just make it obvious, my dear."


    She expected sarcasm but found none. It made her cheeks heat up, her head tip downwards. Why was she so jealous? She didn't even understand it herself, so it would be impossible for her to explain the situation to Cataclysm. Oh well, she would try. "I don't, either. I thnk it's because I wanted to be the first one to make you happy since, when I met you, you weren't. I'm sorry if it's obvious, I'll learn to hide it better if it bothers you. . ."

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    Sunpaw bit her lip, thinking over his silence for a minute. Was that a good or bad thing? She assumed it was a bad thing, so the three moon old would silently vow to stop being jealous of the two, no matter what it took. "So, um, anyway. . . is there anything else you wanna talk to me about?"

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    "So. . . . are we still gonna hang out or can I go back into my den?" Sunpaw tipped her head, frowning at her mentor. There was suddenly an awkwardness in the air, heavy kind of. She wanted to hear about his relationship with her, but just thinking about it made her a little upset. It didn't matter though. She was just a little happy to know that Cataclysm got what he deserved.


    Blah, this subject was annoying her. "Are you okay?"

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    "Why are you so upset all the time?" Sunpaw chirped quietly, inching closer to her mentor twice before giving him an even bigger frown. "I don't like seeing you upset. It hurts and it makes me upset, too. What makes you happy? I wanna make you happy."

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    "Well I'm not happy 'cause you're not happy." the three moon old serval cracked the tiniest of smiles. Maybe she wasn't happy as often anymore because you had to grow up pretty fast in BloodClan. "Is Lovelypaw the only one that can make you happy?" maybe if he said yes, than she would give up trying. No point in trying when it would never happen, right?


    ...Right?

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    It sounded to her like he was confused. She needed to find a way to unravel his confusion and maybe then he would be happy. "Do you wanna teach me to swim?" she would ask innocently, hoping he would comply. She wanted to see him smile. Since she knew him, she didn't think he had ever actually gave a genuine smile.

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    "Come on!"



    Perhaps if she pretended to be happy for a little while, she would actually become happy and that happiness would rub off on her mentor. "Can we go to that beach or do you wanna go somewhere else? Remember when I first met you and I tried to set you on fire? That makes me smile, even though I still feel really bad. I didn't know what it was like, being out there in the big bad world. I do now though, so I know not to be so innocent and stupid. I'm even thinking about giving up that teddy bear. I never play with him anymore, anyway - not since Risencorpse became leader."

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    In a sense, she guessed she was a good cat. A cat that killed was not a good cat. The apprentice forced a smile, beginning to scurry off in the direction of the beach. "Do you want to lead? Can I ride on your back?"

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    "You do." wiggling her hindquarters, mucsles now bunched, the kitten would leap for the male's back and lift herself up onto his spine. Content with her position, she unleashed her claws and began to gently knead his fur. "Amour and I got you a present."