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    Ooh, that seems interesting. I'd look it up but I've got too many tabs open right now that it's really daunting just looking up there. *googles it anyways*

    YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW AMUSING THAT CONVERSATION WAS.


    OK, SO LIKE I'VE HARDLY SLEPT RECENTLY THANKS TO MY BRAIN DECIDING DREAMS ARE A CANVAS FOR THINGS GROWING OUT OF BODIES AND BLOOD AND CREEPY PEOPLE TRYING TO KILL PEOPLE
    BUT
    I SKIMMED
    BUT MY EYES ARE HALF WORKING RIGHT NOW SO I WAS GETTING A BIT LOST IN CAPS LOCK


    BUT WE WILL FIGURE THIS OUT.
    SLOWLY.
    VERY SLOWLY.
    VERY.
    VERY.
    VERY.
    SLOWLY.


    DID I STRESS SLOWLY ENOUGH BECAUSE I'M NOT SURE I DID.


    RUSHING INTO THINGS IS NOT GOING TO WORK FOR ME RIGHT NOW BUT I WILL AT LEAST GO DRINK SOME MORE WEIRD MAGIC CLEAR APPLE JUICE AND SEE IF THE SUGAR HELPS MY BRAIN COMPREHEND STUFF.


    ALSO THIS WON'T BE A MAIN- wait, I'm turning caps lock off it's hurting my head.
    Ok.
    This won't be a priority for me, I'm afraid, as excited as I am for it. (Wait no that's a lie I'm too bluh right now to get excited but I really, really do want to delve into this so I guess that's what I mean)
    Because right now my priority is GUE55, because that's super, duper important and I already have a crapload of things I need to figure out because my plot seriously changes day to day I feel like.


    There's too many ways I could go with it but at the same time it would be hard to keep it fresh and unexpected?


    Gah.


    And also I can't flipping draw robots and can't stick to one design for Square except his big ridiculous triangle head and holograms. That's like literally the only thing I'm sure of.
    I don't know much about how robot bodies work and need to research that so I can put him together better.


    But anyway, just an fyi to you all, that GUE55 is, and always shall, come first.
    So don't expect me to work on this all the time.


    Suggestions for this or GUE55 would be really awesome though


    Also I have no idea what my family would be considered too violent and wonder how much I can get away with when doing GUE55 ahaha it's kind of a very dark comic when it comes down to it
    I really want to play around with Intro/Notion too in like a scene or something and have Intro kind of freak Notion out just to play with him because that's what Intro does? In like... *that* kind of way if you know what I mean? Just a teeny bit. Because it's creepy and fits the mood and stuff... But there's no way my parents would be ok with that, even if it was just hinting at that, and even if it was totally nothing real and just Intro being Intro GAH I hate being held back by my family sometmies awehgt4wjy6uq35y 4WHTRQAVEAFD Z


    At least it's raining.
    That's pretty much the only thing I'm happy with right now.


    So there's that.


    Now where's that fluppin juice.... *wanders away*

    KITSUNE GET THIS.


    I'M PARTICIPTING IN NANOWRIMO THIS YEAR. SO I WENT ON THE SITE TO CHECK OUT THE NEW CHANGES THEY MADE A FEW DAYS AGO. A FEW DAYS AGO THEY POSTED. LISTEN TO THIS.


    "Speaking of bursting, our 2013 pep talkers are ready to erupt with encouragement. Look for messages from James Patterson, Marie Lu, Lev Grossman, Dan Krokos, Sarah Rees Brennan, Sharon Flake, Donna Freitas, and Jeff VanderMeer in your email inbox this November."


    WHAT.
    WHAT.
    WHY.
    WAH.
    STAHP.
    NO BETRAY.
    NO.
    STAHP.
    *EXPLODES*

    WHAT THE-- NO. FREAKING. WAY. FIRA.


    I'm totally okay with that Kitsune I understand. I should probably work on my stories more to get the wrinkles ironed out as well, starting with a color copy of Purge

    *wanders back in, rubbing eyes* The-the... the wah-who-now??


    As much as I love rain and storms, this one kept me up quite a bit last night though I'm still not upset at the storm, I'm more annoyed at dad for wanting to take me jean shopping than anything else but that's besides the point...


    The... the.... OHH. *suddenly clicks* Man. I'd love to join that but there's no way I'd have time. Even if I chose a month where like, nothing was going on, and I signed up and told my parents, they definitely wouldn't let me put this first, meaning I would not have my need to work on it respected, and I would never get it done... *sighs*


    Well, good luck to you, nonetheless. I wouldn't be surprised at all if you made it. :3


    Ahh, maybe I'll try and get it done by myself, this November, just without joining.
    Let NaNiWriMo inspire me to at least try my best to get 50,000 done in a month... because my biggest problem is actually getting stuff done.... -.-" That could be nice though...

    WAIT NO STAHP LISTEN KITSU YOU'RE NOT AN ADULT.
    IF YOU'RE UNDER SEVENTEEN THERES A YOUNG WRITER PROGRAM AND YOU GET TO PICK YOUR AMOUNT OF WRITING. AND IF YOU'RE NOT SURE THEY HAVE A GOAL CALCULATOR WHERE YOU FREE-WRITE FOR TEN MINUTES, THEN PUT IN HOW MANY HOURS YOU CAN REALISTICALLY WRITE IT A DAY, AND IT GIVES YOU A NUMBER. AND HERES A LINK TO GRADE-APPROPIATE SUGGESTIONS I'M IGNORING SINCE I CAN WRITE SEVENTEEN THOUSAND WORDS IN A WEEK.


    PLEASE JOIN SO YOU CAN BE MY WRITING BUDDY.


    http://ywp.nanowrimo.org/wordcount

    [size=3pt]...Woah.[/size] I see you all seem to hate Mr. Patterson even more, now. I guess I shouldn't finish the books...?

    [size=5pt]The Tiny Font Gang Member no. [some number here] must state this now: I don't think any of us particularly cared for him in the first place probably. I know I didn't. I mostly just liked the idea of flying people because that's like my whole dream.[/size]

    Personally, I always need more reading material and am a Chronic Reader (one time at synagogue services us kids had books we needed to read and I had to literally not touch it to avoid devouring a book I was really resenting) (its also why I read soft-cover porn even after realizing its contents at twelve because my mother didn't find out until afterwards, and my dad looked at the cover and didn't realize the implications, and I hated it and couldn't stop reading because I really read too fast and am always looking for something new to read), so I wasn't that much of a fan of the books, but I didn't realize exactly how crappy it is until Kitsu went on the wiki pages. Though personally, I have a hard time reading them just because of the covers, which creep me out. If WHEN I get published, if someone tries to sneak a cover of a person on my book, I will kill them. No pictures of people, please! I hate having people stare at me/look at me while posing in the most ridiculous get-up/pose. Though I'll admit all of Tamora Pierces covers (except the ones that have black undertones and look like they belong under the Twilight/romance section), Harry Potter covers, and Percy Jackson books are all really gorgeous.
    Thats it, I'm writing kids books.


    While I'm posting, too, I think I need to start a blog. I have the worst habit of hating to write about myself. Using a blog as practice/writing in my own voice might help. At the very least, it might mean that if WHEN I get published, it'll be easier for me to get the word out and start a fanbase. Since apparently writers can't just hide in a corner and let the publisher do all the publicizing for them. *cries over broken dream of being a published introvert*


    Speaking of writing, I have a writing related question. When you get angry, what happens, and what methods (if any), have worked for you to calm down? When I get angry I get very impulsive, hot (literally over-heated, which is always the first sign that I'm getting mad), violent, and loud. Last year I was suspended for throwing a metal ring at a student and hitting him (in that really pathetic kind of I'm mad at you and too mad to see straight way). When I get mad and catch myself, if I'm at my computer, instead of speaking, I Skype to my mom and rant, and if not, I try to come up with methods to cool down--walking outside if its cold enough and possibly standing in snow, touching cool metal, cold water, etc.

    Ok, well, tip one (oopsie here goes psychology-nut-Kitsu) is to NOT act out with anger, even if it appears to be in a healthy way.
    This means no punching pillows/other inanimate objects, no screaming into pillows/other inanimate objects, no throwing inanimate objects about in one's alone time, etc. It may seem perfectly fine because it's not hurting anyone and it feels really good at the time, but it actually, in the end, can make it all worse. This is because you are teaching your body that when you feel angry or upset, you need to have some way to act out with that emotion. Instead, you need to teach your body to just calm down on it's own, without the help of external forces. Ranting is ok to a certain extent, but it's not a good idea to rely too much on it, or you'll never be able to calm down when you're alone.


    I personally find that distracting oneself is a really good way; stop thinking about the problem, read, watch tv, surf the web; something that will make you think of something else long enough to cool off. I also like to go take showers, because it gives me some quiet alone time where I can just reason with myself that it really wasn't a big deal in the end, life goes on, whatever, and forget about it all and relax.
    Going outside when it's cold is also helpful, I've done that myself. It just lets you kind of take deep breaths - deep in and out breaths is really good to get control of one's emotions again, because when someone gets in a really emotional state, it can just start building until they aren't thinking clearly anymore; taking long, slow breaths helps with that.
    Oh, and soft music could help. I listen to comforting stuff, or like, music box; something just quiet and peaceful and calming.


    Also ginger tea. That's pretty much my cure-all for anything and everything. I love the stuff. I hated tea until recently but now I'm a bit addicted to ginger tea with a little bit of honey mixed in. I should branch out and try other teas now...

    [size=3pt]Okay. So I'll give you back the... six books I have from you and... still don't know what I want to call her on here.[/size]


    I was like that with books for the longest time, but then I kind of ruined my innocent mind. Whoops. And ever since I got into writing, I became very picky with books I read. But seriously, you are talking to the girl that read through The Hunger Games Trilogy in less than two days.


    When I get mad... I have a bad habit of digging my nails into my hands. Sometimes drawing blood if I forget to shorten them. But then I became creative, and had other ways to go about anger. I still do the nail thing (which I'm not suggesting in any way, as it acomplishes nothing good) I just sing, emo-sketch, write depressing stuff, or take photos and PhotoShop them to take my mind off things. But me being mad is a deadly cycle that goes on for days. Because when I get REALLY mad, I loose it. Punching things, screaming, and eventually breaking down into tears. But I hate crying, which just get me even more mad. This continues until I snap out of whatever. I don't think anyone has seen me like this, though.


    And wow, I sounded like I need serious help. Whoops.
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    ...then I see Kitsu's post.

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    Excuse me while I go shout at the sky "WHY DO WE NOT HAVE A KITSUNE AT THIS SCHOOL TO HELP WITH THE G-DD**N _____ ISSUE INSTEAD OF AN INCOMPATENT TEACHER WHO THINKS SHE CAN TEACH ANGER MANAGEMENT FROM ****ING MAINSTREAM ANGER MANAGEMENT WHICH HELPS NO-ONE!"


    ...
    Okay I'm back. And while that was incredibly helpful for growing up...it doesn't help for what I'm trying to think of. I'm trying to think of some sort of plot. My only hint that my brain gave me? "Not Your Mainstream anger."


    So far I've got a sort of Sci-fi/fantasy idea like this;
    "A person has a power that when they lose their temper they can literally boil a persons blood or set them on fire or implode them. Fearing for other peoples safety, and not knowing how to safely remove this person from society, the person is given a ring that is saturated with drugs. When the top, which is a bunch of needles, is pressed, you get enough of a dose to neutralize it. The problem is that the spark inside them that causes the power (you also need to be touching the person) is their heart or something, and its slowly killing them. They must come up with a better way to keep their temper, and must do it secretly, against the governments wishes. "


    This was after quite a bit of brainstorming. I decided the best thing to do would be to get other peoples experiences with losing their temper. I wanted to write something based off my frustration with many of the temper-keeping books and articles I've read and promptly narrowly avoided throwing across the room in anger (the irony of that always makes me go ha).


    THANK YOU M-CHAN BLESS YOU SWEETIE I NEEDED THAT SO MUCH AFTER KITSUNES POST DREW THE SAME KIND OF RESPONSE I GIVE ANGER MANAGEMENT BOOKS BLESS YOU AND YOUR GOLDFISH AND YOUR PET COW AND YOUR COFFEE.

    Um... uh... *nervous laughter* Thanks?? Your... welcome??
    I could seriously just write pages upon pages of different things that go through my head when I'm like that. Agh.

    AHAHA, you guys should see what I write in fourth period. It's so dark and disturbing my friend actually asked me if I was on anti-depressants.
    Which I'm not.
    Well it might not be too disturbing to you people because well we all more or less like dark stuff here.


    I get so mad in that class that I just vomit out whatever dark feelings I have onto paper and dig my nails into my legs or arms.

    *laughs* Ok I'm going to totally pretend that I don't feel totally honored by that and move onto something a little closer to what you were wanting, hopefully?


    While I sound all smart and dandy there, I sadly am not always the best at following my own advice, and when I am angry or panicked or whathaveyoujusttotallyfreakingout and have no place to go or cannot do what I would normally do to calm down in a healthier way, I too dig my nails into my palms/arms/skin.
    It kind of clears the head and gives you something to focus on instead of the raging emotions that are about to eat you alive and explode you at the same time.
    But uh.. I too do not recommend it. -.-"


    Let's see... I also occasionally get that 'eff you eff the world I don't really care anymore' attitude when I'm angry because I get so mad that I'm almost icy-cold... mostly because I know that totally ticks people off and gets under their skin and in the end I technically didn't do anything wrong once it's over... >.> wow I am an evil mastermind at being angry with people who knew


    Example of that would be when my sister totally got mad at me for not doing some dumb thing with her that she'd been begging me to do with her for like a week. She was calling me names and just being an overall jerk about it, but instead of heating up and fighting back like I wanted to do, I just sat there and stared at my computer and kept surfing the web like I had been, and kept replying coldly, but casually, 'uh huh' 'ok' 'yup sure' 'why thank you' and stuff like that.
    "You are such a selfish jerk!"
    "Ok."
    "You don't care about anyone but yourself!"
    "Mmm-hmm."
    "You're heartless, you know that?!"
    "Okie dokie."
    *continues mindlessly scrolling and acting like I'm blowing everything she's saying off like it's no big deal at all, or just ignoring her entirely because that works too*


    IT TAKES A LOT OF SELF DISIPLINE NOT TO FLIP ONE'S LID AND START FIGHTING FIRE WITH FIRE BUT YOU LEARN, OH YOU LEARN THAT BEING COLD WORKS EVEN BETTER MWAHAHAHA AND YOU CAN'T REALLY GET IN TROUBLE BECAUSE YOU SAID NOT ONE UNKIND WORD TO THEM AT ALL.


    But yeah. Anyway. *cough cough shifty eyes*


    I do occasionally get so steamed up that I just say stuff all deathly-calm-but-full-of-pure-rage, like 'I hate you' and 'you are such a biatch (in a less elementary school manner)', etc.


    But that rarely happens because I keep control of myself 99.999999% of my life. BT


    Otherwise, if I'm not calming down or not reacting to my anger or whatever, I write or listen to angry music or rage-art or whatever stuff like that.
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    *waves hands excitedly* Me too, me too! I love dark and depressing things! Sadness is happy for deep people!


    No, really, my whole family things I'm a very strange child rightfully so because I LOVE, like seriously adore the heck out of anything psychological, depressing, twisted, dark, etc.

    ...Wow. Mind if I use your methods of being all icy cold??


    Aww yesss psychological stuff is so interesting. I really want to watch some really deep psychological thriller right now. Any recommendations?

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