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[shadow=red,left]"It's okay...I love you..."[/shadow]

_{They were best friends,til the end.Two boys who went to the same high school,friends for a very long time.They did everything together,they were such good best friends.They tell each other everything,and comfort each other when in time of the other's need.When one of the boys's mother dies,it completely devastates the boy,and he starts rolling downhill,along with his grades.He starts to smoke,and even drink underage;most of it because his heart is broken and he can't find anything to mend it back together.That is,until his best friend admits to him that he's in love with him,and has been for a long time...What happens after,is totally up to us!}

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_{[size=7pt]I bit my lip as I heard my alarm clock go off.I let out a sigh as I slowly sat up,then reached over to turn the damn thing off.Shit!I almost fell when I realized exactly what time it was.I only had 10 minutes to get ready and get to school!I yelped as I actually slid on the wood floor,even though my feet were bare.I landed on my bum,thankfully not my face.I growled as I quickly got back up and rushed to my closet.I grabbed a plain gray v-neck t-shirt,and slipped it over my head.I turned on my heels and pulled out a drawer from my dresser,grabbing a pair of black skinny jeans that tightly wrapped around my legs.I slipped them on,then ran out of my bedroom door.}

_{I hurried down the stairs,looking around for my mom and/or dad.Of course they were already at work,and didn't even have the decency to wake my lazy ass up.Gosh...I chuckled at myself,shaking my head as I grabbed my black leather jacket-Yes,leather-and jogged over to the door.I had less than eight minutes,now.Thank the Heavens that it only took,like,five minutes to get to school from where I live.I was really thankful for that so I could see my best friend.Man,was he the cutest thing!Um...Don't tell him I said that,K?}

_{I rushed out of the door after grabbing my backpack and singing it over my shoulder.When I closed the door and ran down the steps to the porch,I just realized I didn't eat or drink anything.Oh well,I didn't care.I didn't really eat breakfast,anyway.If I did I wouldn't have any room for lunch.I shook those thoughts away as I jogged down the sidewalk,ruffling my hair a bit with one hand while the other gripped my backpack tight.I smiled a bright smile as I slowed down,letting out a sigh as I looked around.It was beautiful out,today.}

_{I couldn't wait to see what my bestest friend in the whole wide world would have to tell me,today.Yes,I said bestest.Anyway,I was always excited to hear what he had to say.Oh,yes.My best friend is a boy,and I am in love with him.Don't like it,you can go fuck yourself!Well,then,sorry for my...Use of language.And no,one one knows I am a homosexual or that I'm in love with my best friend.Including that wonderful boy who I so rightfully call my bestest friend,in the whole wide flipping world.I shook every thought away,and focused on the school ahead of me.Once I reached the campus,I stopped and bit my lip,the bright smile never leaving my face.This is where we'd usually meet,and I was a bit jumpy as I waited.We still had another 15 minutes before classes actually started,I just like to be early.Ha ha!You thought I was going to be late,didn't you?!?![/size]}

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Yay!Ha ha,thanks! [/size]}

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I feel so stupid...His name is Jude Elliot Taylor,or Jet,as some call him.And I totally forgot to say he slipped some socks and shoes on...Wow...Anyway,he has grey high-top converse on.Heh...}

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I tapped my foot,biting down on my lip a bit hard as I looked around.I yelped when I heard William's voice,then felt his fingers tickling my sides.I started to laugh,turning around as quick as possible without falling.Yes,I was a bit clumsy,sometimes.I grabbed his wrists,but gently so I wouldn't hurt him.My backpack fell down my arm and the strap fell to my elbow.I gently pushed his hands away,then hugged myself in case he tried to tickle me again.Oh man,as I ticklish!}

_{I chuckled softly,shaking my head with my eyes closed and my head hanging.When I opened my eyes and looked back up into those beautiful orbs of his,I sighed heavily."Well,what a nice way to greet your best friend!"I said jokingly,then wrapped my arms around him in a brief hug.After I pulled away I stuff my hands into my pockets,letting my backpack dangle from my wrist."So how's it going,unicorn?"I asked him,chuckling a bit after.I liked to call him 'unicorn' because he was..."Out of this world."I watched him with a bright smile as I waited for his response,lightly biting my lip.He was just so...beautiful.He was not only beautiful on the outside,though,but on the inside,too.Oh how I just wanted to kiss those perfect lips of his!Gosh,I'm such a girl.Eh,I don't care.[/size]}

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Awww...Thank you! CX <3}

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I let out a giggle,nodding my head at him.I watched him as he moved his feet,carefully.Man,was he a good dancer or what?This guy was just fuckin' perfect!Seriously,he's killing me!My mouth opened wide,looking into his eyes after he stated that I must be a magical flipping princess.Ha...Ha ha..."Ha ha,very funny,Will.I really don't think I'm a girl,sweetheart,"I said,rolling my eyes at the perfection in front of me.Ah,shit.I was a girl,on the inside at least.}

_{I closed my eyes for a second,knowing he'd say something about me saying 'sweetheart.'I called everyone sweetheart and sweety,and even hon.And he just had to take advantage of that.Man,he was such a smart ass,but I loved him.From the moment I saw him I knew I'd end up marrying this boy.And never for a second did I doubt that.}

_{I looked down at the pavement below our feet,my face scrunching up as I just waited for him to say something so smart.I bit my lip lightly,a bright smile still plastered on my face.I let out a giggle as I thought of something that no one else would want to know.I opened one eye,not putting my head up,but looked at William.Man,we are such good friends,and I just didn't want to ruin that.That is exactly why I never told him how I felt for him.And,of course,that everyone in the school would start to pick on him.Of course they wouldn't dare o pick on me,because the last guy that did that ended up in a hospital,and I was expelled from that school.That was middle school,and before I met William.Whenever I'm around him I'm just a big softy.[/size]}

_{[size=7pt]I chuckled when he said that,lifting my head up and opening my other eye."Yeah,okay.Very funny,"I said sarcastically rolling my eyes.I looked into his eyes,shaking my head as he laughed.I couldn't help but chuckle,raising my eyebrows after with a content sigh.He was always a joker,we both were.We had so much in common,it's no wonder we're best friends!It is wonder why I haven't-Ack,shut up,Jet!}

_{I bit my lip,once again,lightly as I watched him dance around again.What a happy-go-lucky guy he was.We both were,truthfully.We were both funny,both happy-go-lucky.Well,the only difference is that he s way more sensitive than me,and I'm a whole bunch more,what people would call,the "bad boy" type.If it wasn't for him,I'd probably be in a gang right now.I'd be hanging with the wrong crowd,going to parties,and all of that shit.Thank you,God,for this wonderful human being.}

_{I let out a sigh,looking down at my shoes.His hone had rung not even a second after he had stopped dancing around.When I looked back up to admire his beautiful,perfect features,his phone was on the floor and he was leaning against the metal lockers,a look of pure shock and sadness,emotional pain flooding over his once happy,smiley face.Shit...Something had to have gone wrong for him to stop being...Him."Will?What's wrong?"I asked in my softest tone,a look of concern and worry plastered on my face as I gently grabbed his wrists.}

_{I hated to see him so shocked and so sad.I know I didn't see that often,maybe once before,but I still hated it.His sadness,or emotional pain was contagious,to me."Hey,what happened,William?"I asked again when he didn't answer.I tilted my head to the side a bit as I waited for his response.Any response but him storming off mad or...No!Bad,Jude!Don't you think like that,you moron!Think happy thoughts...Think.Happy.Thoughts.[/size]}

_{[size=7pt]My eyes went wide as he sank to the floor and began to cry,cry out in pain.I took my hands away from his wrists as he slid down to the ground,and watched as he wailed and even screamed.I looked around,seeing lots of eyes giving this wonderful boy dirty looks.I gave them all cold glares before sinking down to his level.His mom...was gone?Oh,shit...}

_{"Hey,hey...William,it's okay,sweetheart,I said softly,going down on my knees in front of him."Hey,you know she's in a better place,right?"I asked,but not expecting an answer.I chewed on my cheek,shaking my head as I let a tear fall from my eye.Something that rarely ever happened.He looked completely broken,and it happened in a matter of seconds.I shook my head again,then wrapped my arms around him.Right now i just wanted to cuddle with him,so I could at least try to make him feel better.I bit my lip hard,shutting my eyes.}

_{I didn't care that the bell had already rung.I was glad,actually,because all of those meanies were away in their classes.I didn't realize my lip was bleeding until I could taste the crimson liquid on my tongue,and I was snapped out of my thoughts.I licked my lip,hugging the broken boy tightly,but not too tight.You have no idea how much I wanted to say I loved him,right now.I think I might,in hope to make him feel better.If he doesn't run off before I can gt a chance to.[/size]}

_{[size=7pt]I shook my head a him,pulling him closer to me so he'd be sitting on my lap.I had one hand at the back o his had,and the other on his back."Shh,it's okay.I-It's okay,"I said softly,rocking us back and forth,gently,in attempt to sooth him at least just a little.I almost let that "I love you" slip out of my mouth,but I caught myself and made it look like I stuttered."It's alright,Will...}

_{I bit my lip again,harder than I usually did,and let the thick crimson liquid just flow into my mouth.I closed my eyes,rubbing my hand on his back.I wanted so badly to say "I love you" to him,but I didn't want to ruin anything;our friendship that has lasted so long it was unbelievable.I let out a sad sigh,silent,as he cried softly onto my shoulder.I knew he had been broken,now.He'd never been like this,not ever.He was always happy with a big smile on his face.Now,now that his mother died,he's broken.}

_{I gulped after licking my lips,my hands almost trembling.It made me want to cry,this boy that I was holding in my arms was so broken.I was 18,already,so I had the right to call him 'boy.'I didn't care that he was clutching onto my shirt,or that he was crying on my shoulder.All I cared about was him.I didn't like it that he was crying,period,or that he was as broken as he was.I was thankful that no one was out here;no one was listening or watching."Everything'll be alright,K?She's watching over you,Will.She doesn't want you to cry,she wants you to b happy,"I explained in my softest voice to him.[/size]}

_{[size=7pt]I sighed silently,softly as I hugged him tightly,for a brief moment before he moved away and stood.I looked up at him,my eyes glittering with sadness.For the first time,we both did not have smiles on our faces.I just sat there,though,not really wanting to move.His mom was like my mom,almost.I didn't have a mother,and she always made me feel at home when I went over to Will's house.I felt so bad...}

_{I looked back to the ground when he stated he couldn't stay here.When I looked back up,he was already gone,out of the doors.Could this day seriously get any worse?I shouldn't ask that,actually,because then something way worse than this is bound to happen.I let out a shaky sigh,running a hand through my thick brown hair.I gripped my backpack tightly,standing up a bit faster than usual.I wanted to catch up to my best friend,to make sure he'd be alright.I knew it wasn't very smart,but I wasn't very smart,anyway.}

_{I let out one more sigh before walking slowly to the doors,pushing then open as slow as possible as the bell rang.When the students came flooding out,I rushed out of the building and down the stairs,hoping no one would see me and report me.I rushed over to where no one could see me,then started walking along the sidewalk.I could just barely see William,picking up my pace.After I went into a jog and got even closer,close enough he could hear me,I began to shout and call to him."William!Hey,Will!Where are you going?" He didn't answer me,so I slowed down with a huff of defeat."Gah,Will!"I whispered angrily,shaking my head as I looked at the ground.[/size]}

_{[size=7pt]I stopped right where I was when he disappeared from my sight.I sighed a loud sigh,looking at the ground with a sad face.That poor boy lost his mother,and I was trying to tel him it was alright.Of course it's not alright!I'm such a dimwit,I wouldn't be surprised if I made him even sadder!Gosh,I wanted to punch myself right now.Will must be so,so broken.I know how he feels...}

_{When my mother died in that plan crash,all I could do all day everyday was sit up in my room and do nothing.My dad would be lucky if I even listened to music where I was.I was still in middle school at the time,which sucked horribly.No one should lose their mother.That's just a way of saying you've got some bad luck.I wondered how his mamma passed away...Was she sick,did she get into a car accident?Heh...Leave it up to me to be so damn curious.}

_{I was tempted to go to his house and walk right in and up to his room.Of course I just walked back to my house,though.I walked in,almost slamming the door behind me.I don't know why I was so mad.I guess I knew that he'd be distant now,and I'd just be on my own most of the time in school.He would never be that happy-go-lucky kind of guy again.And that made me very,very angry.I quickly jogged up the stairs and to my room,not even bothering to say a quick hello to my dad.Shit,I was such an ass sometimes.I didn't pay attention when he called my name,and just walked right into my room.I locked the door behind me,just in case he would try to come up and talk to me.I bit my lip hard,trying to hold in those stupid tears.Why was I sad?Why the hell was I angry?It's not my mother who died just now!}

_{I dropped everything beside my door after grabbing my phone.I turned it on and went to my contacts,very tempted to call my best friend.My crush.But I shook my head and put the thing on the small table beside my bed,on top of my alarm clock."Goddammit!"I yelled when both my phone and alarm clock fell tot he floor.Well,I kinda pushed them off...[/size]}

_{[size=7pt]I chewed on my cheek,looking down at the alarm clock and my phone,glad that my father hadn't heard the crash.I was thankful nothing broke,too.I traced a heart that was carved in the small table,where the alarm clock had been.I carved it in there the first time I met Will.It didn't say anything.It was just a plain,horribly carved heart."Dammit,Will..."I whispered,then looked out the window that wasn't too far from my bed.I stood up and walked over,then opened the window.I sat down,one leg dangling out of the large window,and the other inside of my room.I let the breeze hit my face,gently,closing my eyes as I tilted my head up and rested it against the window frame.}

_{I knew I should go to William's house and comfort him.He trusts me and he's my best friend.I should go over there and tell him that I love him,because I knew that he thought that only his mother loved him.That was not true,not at all.I loved him,and my dad liked him,too.My dad was the only one who knew I was gay,and he knew I liked Will.}

_{I lt out a soft,silent sigh as I opened my eyes.I looked out of the window at the other houses,the very few people out walking,and the cars that passed by.I bit my lip lightly before lifting my leg over the edge,so now both of my legs were out the window.I held on to the windowsill,though,just as
I leaned forward.No one would be scared or frightened at what I was doing.I did this all the time when I didn't feel so happy,or needed cheering up.The breeze and nature were my only friends besides Will.Real friends,anyway.I let out another sigh before lifting my legs one at a time back over inside.Once they were,I stood up and closed the window.}

_{'I think I will go over and finally tell him,'I thought as I chewed on my lip.I nodded at myself,and walked over to my bedroom door,then unlocked it.[/size]}