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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 350px][justify]She had always been notorious for her travels, so when the small she-cat felt herself cross a scent border she knew and recognized it to be Windclan. She hadnt stopped running or crying for that matter. This was the fourth time since turning into an apprentice she had been raped but none had ever been as gruesome or painful as this. Why? It hurt more because now she had no where to turn now she was all alone. She shouldn't have left now she was going to regret it, now she would feel true heartbreak. He had promised her that rejecting him would be her worst mistake and it was. Without Hooray she was an empty shell. She felt so alone and the daughter of Cropcircles lay down, she wanted to die. To merely fade to nothing left but a memory. She had though she had learned to hold back all feelings but now she let it all bubble to the surface and the small form of Edenspaw collapsed in the Windclan moor. Golden and white fur wracked by heart broken sobbs. Blue eyes were red and blood shot, she was a wreck all alone. Fleeing the scorn and heartache that was bloodclan, only to feel the same pain away from it. She swore it would get better but now she felt the same struggle only without anyone to turn too.


    Thoughts tangled in her mind and she let them go, she didnt have much will to hold onto anyways. Why am I so stupid? I should have fought harder, I could've.... I should've. I should have never left Ray, he made me smile offered me a good life and I turned it down? All because I was afraid to fall in love. Now look at me... If god had mercy he would just kill me now... She sank her claws into the ground as she wrecked against the moor. Ive never felt so lonely...[/justify]

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    Sima Shi ran to the Border as soon as he sensed a cat cross it. The Windclan bodyguard and ex Shadowclan general had super senses, thus he could now easily tell what was going on in different places. He kept running through the trees and leapt right in front of Edenspaw. "State your name, clan, and business here." he mewed coldly. He had a job to do and a quota to keep. He could not be wasting his time with nonsense.

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    Her fur shot up and she became almost twice her size. She took a moment to break the run away train of thoughts that were running wild and rampant in her pretty little head. "Edenspaw. Bloodclan. I don't know why I'm here..." or alive for that matter..... She forced herself up into a sitting position trying to look at least a little more presentable, it was a lost cause with tear tracks on her white and gold face, and red blood shot eyes. With fur that was dirty from laying on the ground. With a heart that was broken, and a voice that was cracked. She was shattered. Now she just looked all the more the part.
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    Sima Shi unsheathed his claws upon hearing Bloodclan's name mentioned. He narrowed his eyes "You better give a reason for being here. You know how we stand with Bloodclan."he mewed. He would have to chase this she cat out if she did not give a good reason for being here.

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 350px][justify]She looked up at him showing submission. She had had enough of this she wanted to explain but didnt want to open up to a total stranger. "I- I" maybe she could just tell him she had left. "I left bloodclan. I'm not in alleigance with them anymore.... I don't mean any harm. I didnt even mean to come here. I've been runnin for days...." she looked up at him and her stomach did a flip. He was bigger clearly aggressive and she was weak anyways.[/justify]

    Sima Shi sighed as he sheathed his claws. True, this she cat could be lying and she could be a spy, but he knew perfectly what it was like to have to flee from a clan. Although he was exiled due to the fear of others instead of his own every single time. Still this she cat seemed pretty harmless and Bloodclan wasn't smart enough to use a spy properly. So he nodded "Why don't you join Windclan, where everyone is a little nicer and not as stupid as the cats in other clans?" he mewed. He had a quota to meet anyway so may as well take this opportunity.

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 350px][justify][font=andale mono][color=black] This was Deja Vú. What seemed like everything she could want offered to her, last time she had declined hooray, because she was afraid. She wasn't about to let another opurtunity at happiness pass her by. "Wi-Will they welcome me?" she asked a little fearfully. She doubted it, who wants a sad lonely ex-enemy sleeping in the place you call home. She blinked her light blue gaze lifting a paw and wiping away the tears that remained.

    Sima Shi sighed as he looked around "Depends what you mean by welcome. As long as you behave cats should treat you fine here. As for a welcoming party, I'm it." he mewed. Man so many cats leaving clans to join others, well, Bloodclan was a horrible clan to be in.

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 350px][justify] She blinked. Then nodding slowly, "I don't need an ovation I just need a safe place to rest my head." that's all she had ever wanted. All she ever got was another painful memory to add to her ringing head. "Id be happy to join... I you'll let me." she was waiting for the catch the, "What no? You kidding you can't ever be happy!" It seemed like that was the message that followed her around. Never happy.[/justify]

    Sima Shi nodded "Yeah, of course. I left Shadowclan to join this clan after I found out they were all weak idiots so I understand where you are coming from." he mewed trying to reassure her that everything was going to be alright.

    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 350px][justify]She nodded and put on a fake smile. Best not to take the pain into her new life. Hooray may be the only one who haunts her dreams at night but he couldn't have her days too. This was her time to rise above all of them, to show that she could be herself. "You know I never liked bloodclan.... They made me kill. I never killed, never even really used my claws on another cat. I was considered a "Kit" untill around 12 moons because I refused to kill.... Eventually I had no choice anyways." she thought maybe if she told him of how she hadnt meant to become of that devil clan. Yet it was true, she never was the right cat for bloodclan. Maybe they would understand. [/justify]

    Sima Shi tilted his head to her "If you wish to be a warrior in this clan, you will have to kill. Otherwise you will be wiped out on your first battle. We face the enemies that need to be faced. The anticlans that kill kits and queens. Those idiots need to be wiped off the face of the earth for their cowardice and stupidity."

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    "No they wanted me to kill. As in murder there was no honor no battle, they expected me to merely kill for sport. They didnt even care who's life I took...." she meowed her shoulders sagging a little as she felt herself becoming too comfortable with this cat. She could never let her guard down after all.













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    Sima Shi smirked as he began padding along, he couldn't help but purr "Well you need not worry about that. We won't make you do it. In fact." he mewed as he suddenly paused "If I catch you murdering innocent cat's. I will kill you on the spot."

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    "I don't think you'll have that problem any time soon." she teased purring a little in turn. Her blue eyes closed when she purred they always did. She was weird, but who wants to be normal? She found herself becoming more and more relaxed despite the way she tried to stay alert.










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    Sima Shi kept on padding "I'd rather keep on eye on you than take your word for it. Fighting your leader face to face and making the Elites leader run off to Serpentstar with his tail between his legs made me learn one thing. Anticlans are filled with nothing but cowards."

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    The natural wave of protection for Hooray came and went as she realized shed rather be here then there. This wasn't making any sense, but who cares she never was happy there. "Have it your way ill just have to prove you wrong" she smiled. Genuine this time, she would prove herself to this clan.












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    Sima Shi kept padding towards the camp "Good, not like you have a choice, but glad that you have the goal in your head." the bodyguard mewed as he kept padding onward.

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    She followed him. She was a little confused still but didnt let on. "So one question... What's the umm law on rapists in pro clans?" she tried to make it sound nonchalant. This was an akward topic but in bloodclan they had let all of them get away. Golnar, Jellar, Ace. They had turned there backs to the crime.














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    Sima Shi shrugged "Don't know, but while I am bodyguard and patrol the camp, the punishment is death on the spot. If the cat is important enough, I may ask for permission first." he mewed.