I'll sit here and cry, anyone who bothers me will DIE

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    Shrubfang padded in to camp through a litttle hole in the wall. It was around midnight by now Lately I'm out every night, I wonder if any cat suspects anything she looked up, The stars, and the moon she thought, CURSE THE STARS! she slashed the ground her pupils narrowed to slits, They already rejected me cause I'm a murderer, I murdered a kit... Eaglekit... He was so cute.... tears formed at the edge of her eyes, and whipped her head to the side B-but he saw me attacking another cat, and threatening to kill that cat...So-so I had too! tears rolled down her cheeks, and her crying turned in to sobbing I feel like my whole life is falling apart! and when, or if the leader finds out I've murdered cats in Hawkclan me. me myself, I'm dead!!! she still hadn't stopped sobbing And-And I love Hawkclan it's my home and I fell SO SO SO! GUILTY! she lifted her head up and let out a painful yowl It's eating me from the inside out! and still if the leader finds out I lose my love... Hurricanewinds he's the only cat I really deeply cared for, and he cares for me... and I would hate myself if I did anything to hurt him, But I will end up doing just that, I'm a murderer!.


    By now Shrubfang's yowling should of waken half the camp. Her head dropped, a shadow cast over her eyes. Tears fell to the ground I regret everything. My whole life has been messed up and screwed up the tiny she-cat stopped sobbing and took a deep breath "But Life isn't fair to anyone, either way you look at it" she mumbled, her tails and, ears dropped along with her head, her head dropped more low then it was before. Her claws were sinking in to the ground Anyone who will find out about my little 'secret' will die she thought violently

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    [font=georgia][color=black]"Life isn't fair. Look at where I am now, after dying on the inside for the first seven moons of my life." Sleeplesspaw meowed bitterly as she padded up, no emotion in her voice whatsoever as she gazed at Shrubfang, her baby blue doe eyes clearly not pleased with what was going on. Now, the ten moon old cream tabby was not older than the warrior, no, but she did hold a bit of authority over the other feline. It was just the way the wind blew. "No need to cry." She commented casually. "It's not like you were bullied for seven moons, and failed a suicide attempt. Not bearing the scars of it like I am, are you?" Not daring to add these words to her statement, the Bouncer Trainee gave the she-cat another hard stare, this time keeping her jaws shut and not adding anymore words to the fray. Why bother? The pregnant ten moon old was already in a bad enough mood, no need to start a pointless fight and just piss herself off even more than she already was. Because a moody Sleeplesspaw was never good for anyone, and a few of her clanmates would be able to point that out right away for obvious reasons.

    Shrubfang snarled, and leapt off her paws and landed right in front of Sleeplesspaw hitting a smooth landing and snapping her jaws in front of her face, she was not even half a centimeter close to biting the she-cat, her snap was closer. That was a warning Shot she snarled as she thought if she doesn't back off I can make sure she defiantly won't have those kits! You'll be dead


    Ooc- gtg for the night! see ya!

    [font=georgia][color=black]"What the hell?" The curse slipped off of her tongue, her pretty baby blue doe eyes widening in shock as she jumped back, silky cream tabby fur bristling in shock. Well, that was her first time cursing, and it came pretty naturally, which meant she was finally growing up and into the Bouncer she so desperately wanted to be one day. "What do you think you're doing?" Sleeplesspaw asked, still bewildered that this cat had the gut to try and attack her, the Bouncer Trainee, the daughter in law of the deputy, the 'daughter' of a Royal, 'sister' of a Royal, and the list ran on and on. Basically, she was pretty shocked that she had just been pretty much attacked by someone other than her own teeth and claws.


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    Yeah, yeah, someone always had some sad story to tell. There was always something - a r.ape incident, a murder, the loss of a close family member; the list went on forever. Well, Wildstreak had all of that sh*t, but she would rather just not talk about it, as opposed to advertising it everywhere as some cats seemed to. You couldn't really do anything about the scars, they kind of said something about you. But Wildstreak pretended they weren't there, and cats didn't ask about them. It was as easy as that - ignorance. The common code shared between the sinful and the righteous. Perhaps, if the ugliness was just ignored, it would stay away. That seemed to be the idea.


    The deputy was sitting outside the nursery, late at night, as par usual. Her gaze was focused on the stars, and she closed her eyes, trying to keep her mother out of her head. Where was she? Was she alive? Did she ever remember her daughter? Her family that she left behind? Growling in irritation, Wildstreak blinked her blue eyes, ignoring all the questions that her mind offered to her, even when she had already tired each of them out in every avenue, exploring every option, every possibility. But that was when the sound of...yes, it was crying that her ears were picking up. Just then she saw a she-cat enter the camp, a she-cat that Wildstreak recognized, but didn't see often. The she-cat seemed to have a dark personality, and hung back from the crowd a lot of the time. But there was something else - Sleeplesspaw was there. Wildstreak squinted. What did the creamy, frivolous she-cat want to do with a ruffian like that? Suddenly, Shrubfang lunged, just missing Sleeplesspaw, who jumped back in shock. Startled at the attack, Wildstreak got up from her post and strode forward towards the two. She stared at Shrubfang.
    "Excuse me, what is going on?" Wildstreak said, her voice tainted with outrage at the she-cat's actions. She wouldn't put it past Shrubfang to try and attack her, and if she did, well she would get beaten.

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    "Damn it guys! Cut it out!" Russianroulette snapped, aiming to shove both Shrubfang and Sleeplesspaw away from each other. A few cuts and brusises never killed anyone especially if their life was at stake. The junior deputy huffed as he gave Wildstreak a dark gaze. She should've done something, not just stood there.    [/justify]

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    Hurricanewinds was easily watching. He'd seen fights between her and other lowers, but never a bouncer in training. Mainly because they were Bouncers in training. "Oi, Shrubfang, you might wanna watch your left side and the fact that she's a bouncer in training." he intruded. Of course, Sleeplesspaw was pregnant with, who was it? Tigerroar-or something's kits? Hurricanewinds didn't bother himself with these kind of high up cats. He knew most of their names, so why not just leave it at that?


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    [font=georgia][color=black]"I didn't even do anything other than tell her to stop crying. Then she tried to attack me, probably wanting to kill me." Sleeplesspaw whimpered, turning her gaze on Wildstreak and Russianroulette, a frown dancing at the edges of her feminine shaped maw. Wildstreak was like a mother-in-law, and Russian was her adoptive mother's brother, so he was like an uncle, wasn't he? "Why did she do that?" The cream tabby asked, not even looking at Shrubfang and keeping her gaze on the Royal and the deputy.

    [fancypost borderwidth=0pt][justify][size=8]"Shrubfang, you better fucking solve whatever issues you have by not killing your Clanmates," the pregnant Bouncer growled, fur rising. Why the fuck was another warrior attacking a Bouncer Trainee. Was Shrubfang seriously that stupid?

    Shrubfang leaped back, she looked at all the cats pure confusion of what to do showed in her eyes, and some terror Dang it! I forgot... No witnesses!! she was such an idiot
    "Oh shut up, I wasn't really gonna attack her I was just messing around" she replied rudely with a lie, her greens eyes gazed to the side. Then she saw Hurricanewinds, and once her gaze reached his, her head dropped Hurricanewinds knows... I just hope he doesn't reveal it she sheathed her claws, and kept her jaws shut

    A massive marbled Bengal padded out towards the group as he flicked his torn ear with clear curiosity. His amber eyes landed on Shrubfang and narrowed with slight suspicion. Then they went over to the bitter Sleeplesspaw. He remembered recommending her to become a bouncer trainee.....but she seemed different. The shecat he once loved so deeply was now bitter.....all because of him he suppose. Tigerroar turned back to Shrubfang. "Look....I understand you are going through....shit we all have problems and secrets...but do the logical thing...and find yourself a place in the territory where you won't be bothered....then you don't have to snap at someone's face for giving you some advice. You were pretty much asking for it." he meowed calmly. He never thought that someone had bigger problems then the other...him being figured over and over and over again away from his home could be just as worse a a kit stepping on a thorn. But if he could attack a clanmate for being a bitch towards him...he would not allow this warrior to attack Sleepy for not being one. Hell he was once a bullied outsider...so young and shy until Euphoria toughened him up. But he didn't sit, cry, tell his story, IR even tried to take his own life because of it. He pressed forward. Which was what Shrubfang needed to do

    [font=georgia][color=black]Pressing herself against the deputy, she sighed softly and blinked up at him."Tigerroar, you have such good ideas." She cooed, her feelings for the handsome tom all coming back, even if they weren't mates and she was with Crimepaw. It never hurt to compliment though, did it?


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    Shrubfang was right about to snap out at TigerRoar she didn't though, but she snarled Instead of just leaving to some where in the territory maybe I should leave the whole clan, I'm just a nuisance to everyone and the clan is probably still wondering about all the dead cats, and kits Shrubfang remained silent, then she unsheathed her claws and sunk them in to the ground trying not to claw one of them

    Tigerroar closed shut his eyes at her soothing words. Dammit!! He wanted to stop loving her...he had to. But the feeling wouldn't leave him alone. The scarred Tom tried to keep his professional demeanor as he nodded to Sleepy...she probably didn't mean any harm anyways. Then he turned to Shrubfang. "You should be more careful on choosing your battles. The first thing to learn is that not every encounter has to be one. No one is jumping on you, we are just letting you know that whatever the hell is up with you...it's making you very noticeable. Try to understand that I don't care what you did or what happened in the past...leave it there." he meowed calmly.


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    Wildstreak's pelt crawled in disgust at Sleeplesspaw's whimpering and cooing, and she spat in revulsion. She felt Russain's gaze scathe her pelt, and she turned to him in questioning. There's no reason to cause more fighting you dumb*ss, she thought, not really knowing whether or not the tom had telepathy, and not really caring, either. The royal had been a major b*tch ever since Tigerroar was announced deputy, and frankly, Wildstreak was tired of his moping. The deputy flashed her blue, sea-glass gaze onto Sleeplesspaw, disgusted by the fact that she thought she could just go around and flirt with every tom in the clan, while she was supposed to be loyal to the deputy's son, Crimepaw. If you hurt my son, you little b*tch... Wildstreak let the thought go unfinished, not wanting to venture into the things she'd like to do to the groveling, self-pitying she-cat, who Wildstreak thought was hardly even suited to be a bouncer, ever, if she acted as pathetic as this.
    "Look, whatever you've done in the deep past is the past. Tell us, and we'll try to help you. But if you're going to lash out at your clan in this manner, well..." She gave her tail a flick of remorse. "You won't be allowed here anymore."

    She lifted her paw and slashed the ground, her eyes in slits, then she sighed " Sumimasen" to the deputies, and turned around, and took TigerRoar's advice and went in to the territory

    Wildstreak blinked, not understanding the weird she-cat's words. She watched her lope off into the shadows of the forest, and then turned to Tigerroar, her gaze serious.
    "What are we going to do about her? There's something really off about that cat. Why would anyone lash out like that?" she murmured to the tabby tom, her blue gaze filled with storm clouds of worry. Her thoughts whirled in her head like leaves on the wind as she tried to decide what to think of the she-cat, much less what to do with her.
    "I guess we can't really punish her yet, seeing as she didn't harm anyone. But someone will need to keep a close eye on her. Watch her, see what she does. I don't want this to happen again, because if it does, it could be far worse." Wildstreak looked over at Sleeplesspaw with disdain. While she really did not like the she-cat, she wouldn't put up with her or anyone else in the clan getting attacked.


    OOC: I'm going to see a show at the Hippodrome - I'll be gone today. <3

    Ooc- ^^ Good for you :P
    IC- Shrubfang trotted through the forest and then she saw a giant oak tree, then sighed "This is where I buried Eaglekit, no one knows he's dead, they just thought he ran off" she sat down and dipped her head at the grave "I never wanted to hurt you, I loved you Eaglekit. I Ayamaru but your probably in a better place along with your mother, and fater "

    Tigerroar raised an nonexisting brow at Wildstreak then to Sleeplesspaw. He knew they weren't on "good terms". He felt suddenly protective of Sleeplesspaw...but it was foolish. Wildstreak was too focused on the safety of his clan...so was he. "I will ensure Flyron keeps an eye on her....we can't be too careful" he said glad his insane friend was back. He had his suspicions about Shrubfang...she was clearly troubled about something.

    "Sumimasen, Sumimasen Eaglekit" her voice shook then her head dropped "I love my clan, but at some point I'll have to leave, either exile, or death both ways are good" she lied down touching her nose to where Eaglekit was buried "Goodnight" then she walked passed it, and kept walking on