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    [color=teal][font=georgia] [ well... there is A LOT of drama on that site and when you join as one character, you get the stress of just that one character and it's just like, UGH. Sabrina is the girl I joined as and I just had to... leave for a moment. ]


    Harry watched Louis come into the room. He leaned against the wall, crossing his arms, trying to look natural as he watched the older boy make his way across the room and onto the bed. He could already see by the slump of his shoulders, and the glimpse he saw in his eyes. His lifeless blue eyes. That he thought he was in trouble. Harry sighed. He could be mad at Louis, but that didn't mean he could stay mad. Harry made his way over towards the door, closing it slowly before turning to the lad, just in time to catch the question, to see the tears filming up in his blue eyes. He sighed and shook his head, forcing himself to calm down. He needed to remind himself he needed to take it easy with Louis. He was so sensitive. He hated him seeing Louis cry. He walked up to him and pulled him close, kissing Louis's forehead. "Maybe I just wanted to cuddle," he murmured. He was just going to brush it off. Louis and Kathy has been holding a grudge against each other awhile and he could understand where Louis was coming from. He was so anxious and Harry himself needed to understand that. And plus, he did miss that. The cuddling. "Let's not think of everything that happened today and just... cuddle, baby, that's all." He said in a soothing voice, hoping that'd clam him down.

    (Oh. I was on a site that had constant drama. Role Playing was against the rules though. It was mostly just a chat site. But everyone was always getting mad at each other, trying to shove their beliefs down everyone else's throats and being jerks to others. It was hectic and half the time I wanted to throw my head against the wall...but it was so addicting...hehe.)


    Louis nodded slowly, but the tears were still leaking from his eyes. "I just don't want you to be mad at m-me..." He whimpered out, hugging his knees close to his chest. "I was being a jerk but I just didn't want her to know I was scared. I-I don't want to lose you again. I don't want you to hate me...I didn't mean to be so rude. You have every right to be mad though.." He murmured, his blue eyes wide as he stared up at him. He felt so jittery and upset. He hated being in trouble, especially with Harry. But he had never been one to show his fears. He'd always use anger to cover it up, which wasn't the best idea, but he didn't know what else to do. With a soft, shaky sigh, he leaned over and kissed his jaw gently, and then rested his head onto his shoulder. He wiped at the tears with his sleeves. Louis just wanted to make Harry happy. That's what he wanted. He wanted to be able to make him smile and laugh the way he used to but he just couldn't be the same Louis anymore. He tried to be. He tried to be the sassy, funny, random, confident lad he used to be, but he just wasn't. He was skittish and sensitive, quiet and broken. Maybe he'd never be more than that. Maybe he'd never amount to anything. But he just wanted to make Harry happy. "I wish I could make you happy but I just seem to make you mad or upset or sad....I-I just wish I could....but I can't."

    [color=teal][font=georgia] { Yes! Oh you can get addicted to sites can you? (; okay, excuse me on that wink face it makes everything really creepy xD Well, then you should join that site. I'll come back just to get you started. I need someone I knew on there before I joined and stayed. --> click you can join as anyone or anything. If you have questions, feel free to message me but PLUH-EASE JOIN! }


    Harry listened to Louis and sighed. He knew the boy was upset but for all Harry did, didn't he see that Harry himself was trying to make Louis happy? He'd travel to the moon and back for that boy. If only he admitted his love for him earlier, didn't get with a girl only to fall head over heels for her and find she was a user, then this would have not all happened. He'd still be the happy Louis he once was. But Louis probably thought all the way back ton where if they didn't meet, Harry wouldn't have to worry about anything. But the thing was, he wanted to meet him. He liked the boy being in his arms it felt so right. "Shh..." he whispered quietly. holding him close and rocking them both. "You're perfect to me... perfect." He watched the Louis wipe his tears, hoping rocking him and soothingly comforting him would get the crying to stop. [b]"I love you... I love you so so much."

    (Yes, I get addicted to sites all the time. I get in trouble all the time for trying to stay on my computer all day to go on them. XD I get so addicted it ain't even funneh. But yeah, maybe I'll join. c:)


    Louis sighed as his tensed muscles began to relax. He nuzzled the younger boys neck and sighed in content as he began to rock him back and forth. It had worked to calm him. Especially the 'I love you' he had added. His eyes instantly calmed at that and he kissed his lips gently for a moment. He just had to keep himself from messing things up again. He just had to stay calm. He just had to make Harry happy again. "I just wish I could make you happy though. I always upset you...you deserve better than a cutter like me...you deserve so much better. I know you'll say that you don't know you deserve me or some shit like that but please don't. Everyone says that but it's only to make me feel better."

    [color=teal][font=georgia] {Cool. And everything that you fill out, it's about your character. not you. c; Except the... email address xD And omg, I got in trouble for trying to stay on past the amount of time I was supposed to. I was sooo pissed.}


    Harry listened to him and huffed quietly. Didn't Louis get that he didn't want better. He was glad that he had calmed Louis down, but that didn't change Louis's feelings for a minute. He just wanted him to accept that he loved him. "If I wanted any better," he murmured. "I would have left by now. And I swear, I'm not saying this to make you feel better." He added in, with a small sigh as he looked at the wall, nothing in particular, continuing to rock Louis. Leaning down, he kissed the boy's lips gently. [b]"You're never going to make me any happier than I already am if you're not happy."

    (Same thing happens to me. My girlfriend has an account I here and she gets in trouble all the time for staying in here or this other site too much. Haha. XD I'm on my phine now as well so… my posts will be crappier tha usual. Lol.)


    Louis's gaze remained on Harry. He seemed to be giving up on trying to convince Harry otherwise, though his eyes remains uncertain. Finally he simply nodded and leaned agains him for support. Louis wasn't very strong, as he didn't take care of himself the way he should, but he didn't care. Harry was his muscles. "O-okay. I love you too." He murmured, pecking his lips multiple times. "Your the best boyfriend ever. You're al understanding and beautiful and helpful. I know you have your flaw as but don't we all? Just… don't let me go. Ever. Please? I need you. You can break up with me just don't go back to ignoring me. I's die if you did. I love you maybe a little too much. I'm just really attached to you and your like my life now. So promise me you won't ignore me?"

    [Color=teal][font=georgia] { My mom complains that I don't get out too much and I need to socialize and blah blah xD I have a sad, sad life. And I came back to help you and pissed someone off already just because I have self-hatred to myself doesn't mean I hate them. >.> Ugh. So sorry if mine is short, I'm too pissed to think }


    Harry relaxed when he came up, telling him he loved him too. Harry continued to rock him, listening to Louis talk. "I love you, too. I won't ever leave you nor will I ever ignore you.." He murmured, hugging him tightly with a small sigh.


    (This... sucked)

    (It's fine. I understand. c: I'm sorry you're upset. :( My post sucked, sorry.. )


    Louis nodded a bit and leaned up, pressing his lips firmly to Harry's. He missed this...just being in each others arms, happy for once. He never seemed to be able to find happiness anymore, especially when Harry was upset with him. But now...now he just seemed to be happy and he loved that. He pulled away after a moment and he rested his head on the younger boys shoulder, his eyes fluttering to a close. "Thank you." He whispered, playing with his curls. "I'm sorry we always fight. That's m-my isn't it? I'm sorry. I don't mean to start arguments." He murmured weakly, his shoulders sagging a bit at the thought. He hated it when he argued with anyone. It just...it just wasn't him. He was used to making others laugh at his random and silly jokes. Not making them all upset and depressed and worried over him. He just wished things could get better..