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    [align=center][font=georgia] Louis rubbed Harry's back, rubbing it, feeling so bad for some reason. He felt like he wasn't there for Harry all this time and he wasn't trying to cry. Though he was close to breaking. He was afraid to learn who this person was. He couldn't believe Harry loved someone.... [color=white]"Anyone would be lucky to have you..." he mumbled. [color=white]"That person must be too b-blind to see it."

    Harry wiped the tears awy and slowly nodded as he looked at him. "Yeah he is.." He said quietly and stared into Louis's eyes. "Lou..." He whispered then stopped and looked down. "I'm sorry.." He murmured then turned and hurried upstairs.

    [Center][font=georgia] Louis could have almost swore that when Harry said his name, that he meant he was in love with him. Louis gaped to say something but couldn't say anything. As Harry raced upstairs, he watched him, his eyes amerting to his empty arms. He let them drop before racing upstairs to his own room, slaimming the door behind him, punching at it. [Color=white]"Oh God... why Harry?" he mumbled. Usually when Louis was upset, he always used to drink away his problems. He hadn't done it in awhile. But now, that's what he thought he wanted to do.

    Harry closed his door behind him quickly then went and sat on his bed. E put his head in his hands and took a deep breath. His arms stung from the deep cut and his heart ached eve worse. He sighed softly and lifted his head to stare at the wall.


    Liam had pretty much heard the entire conversation. He looked down at the floor and bit his lip when he heard Harry admitting to Louis that he was in love. With him, only him. Liam closed his eyes, knowing that all his hopes of being with Louis were shattered.

    [Center][font=georgia][color=black] Louis looked towards his jacket on the post and grabbed his jeaned jacket, slipping it on. He headed out his room and downstairs, towards the exit of the house. He looked towards Liam, seeing that he looked upset, too. Why do I make people feel this way? he thought upsettingly, deciding to go to the nearby bar. He couldn't help it. He didn't want to worry, he wanted to make everything okay. Maybe not worrying all the time would make it better for everyone.

    Liam watched him leave and waited a few seconds before deciding to go after him. "Louis!" He called and ran after him. "Where are you going?" He asked. "You better not be going to the bar, last time you nearly killed yourself.." He said quietly.

    [Center][font=georgia] Louis stopped walking when Liam was walking beside him. He looked at Liam, trying to hide his emotion. His jaw tightened, muscls tensing. He clenched his fist, driving his nails into his palms. He wasn't able to look at Liam. "No..." he managed. He couldn't take the pain any longer. [Color=white]"I'm sorry Li..." his voice was raspy, full of emotion.

    Liam shook his head and gently grabbed his arm, attempting to pull him back. "Please Lou, don't do this.." He said softly. "Your going to hurt yourself and imagine how Harry will feel.." He said quietly. Saying that tore him up inside but it had to be said. He couldn't let Louis go and get drunk, he wouldn't allow it.

    [Center][font=georgia] Louis lowered his head, having himself convinced, trying to find reasons why he should go and drink his problems away. "Harry doesn't care..." he mumbled bitterly. [Color=white]"He already hurts himself and it's all my fault. I haven't been there for him." He voice broke and he covered his face, wiping away his tears. [Color=white]"God, Li, why am I ruining everything?"

    Liam shook his head and stared at him. "No Lou, no.." He whispered. "Go to Harry, admit your feelings for him.." He said quietly. "I know you love him too Louis. You need to tell him.." He frowned and took a step back, trying to hide the tears in his eyes. "Tell him.." He whispered. "He needs to know, he's hurting inside, his heart is broken. He wants you, he desires your love.."

    [Center][font=georgia] Louis was silent. So it was true. No only had he seen it, so did Liam. He heard all the emotion in the lads voice and knew he was sad. "But Liam..." he mumbled sadly. "I..." He was suddenly afraid to say it. He stared at the hurt lad and wrapped his arms around him quickly. [Color=white]"I'm so sorry Liam." For some reason, Liam made him so nervous. He decided he wouldn't go, at least not right now. [Color=white]"Okay..."

    Liam smiled faintly through his tears and hugged him back tightly. "Don't be sorry Lou, I want you both to be happy.." He whispered then pulled away. "Just promise me that you won't go to that bar.."

    [align=center][font=georgia] Louis hesitated. He didn't want to make that promise, especially if Harry ended up rejecting him. "I promise..." he mumbled after a moment's hesitation. He kissed the younger lad's cheek. He knew that Liam loved him and Louis still never lost that fluttery feeling in his chest it was just that, Harry needed him more. He pulled away from Liam and headed slowly back into the house. He went upstairs and towards Harry's room, knocking on the door. He didn't bother hiding ever emotion he tried to hide. [color=white]"Hazza?" He called out.

    Harry looked up as he heard the knock at the door and Louis voice. "It's open.." He called softly and crossed his legs as he stared at the door. He looked down at his hands folded neatly in his lap, and innocent look on his face.

    [align=center][font=georgia] Louis opened the door slowly to see Harry sitting there crisscrossed. He was almost nervous, he couldn't look at Harry's face but instead, he was looking at the ground as he closed the door slowly behind him, and headed over towards Harry's bed. He sunk down beside him, finally lifting his eyes to meet Harry's. "Harry...." he mumbled. [color=white]"There's something I've been meaning to tell you..." he said quietly. He was suddenly hypnotized in those green eyes and instead of saying it, he expressed it by placing Harry's lips on his own.

    Harry looked up as Louis walked in and sat beside him. He looked at him, a gentle look in green eyes as he waited for Louis to speak. His eyes slightly widned when Louis suddenly kissed him. Then he felt weak, and his lips felt numb to the kiss. His eyes slowly fluttered closed and he gently kissed back.

    [align=center][font=georgia] Louis was surprised at himself but instead of worrying too much, he pulled Harry closer, lowering the younger lad onto the bed and climbing on top of him, never pulling away. Until he realized what he was doing, did he pulled away, lightly panting, his eyes meeting Harry's. He held himself up so his body's wasn't pressed against the younger lad's. He reached one of his hands and used his index finger to trace the outline of Harry's jaw. [color=white]"I'm in love with you, Hazza." he whispered.

    Harry panted softly as he gazed up at the older boy. A distant almost dreamy look to his green eyes. He smiled faintly and continued to just stare at him. "Louis.." He whispered softly and closed his eyes as he felt his fingers trail against his jaw line. Harry opened his eyes slightly and looked up at him. "You love me?" He whispered.

    [align=center][font=georgia] Louis smiled at the younger lad's reaction towards it. He stopped trailing at Harry's neck, sitting back on Harry's lap slightly. He realized what he was doing, blushing and rolled over beside him instead, looking at the lad still. [color=white]"Yes, Harry." he said honestly, not able to hide his feelings any longer. [color=white]"I love you so much."

    Harry tilted his head and smiled again. "Wow, I've always dreamed of you saying that.." He said quietly then looked at him. "I love you to Lou.." He whispered softly and bit his lip, then reached up and placed his hand on the older boys cheek.